I can only fake being okay with things for so long before I crack. The ball of hate showed through the cracks yesterday, but I was able to glue some of them together today. I'm not sure how much they'll hold tomorrow, but at least it's the last day in my short week. And I'm *hopefully* working with people who I don't have to feel like I'm babysitting. Professional babysitters get paid more than I do. If I didn't dislike kids so much, I'd go for being a nanny.

There's a spot on my arm and it was about the size of a dime yesterday, but it has since grown to about the size of a quarter. It doesn't itch and there's only pain when there's pressure applied. It kind of looked like a zit, but with the way the spot around it has grown, I'm thinking it might be a spider bite. With the exception of it not itching, that's kind of how I reacted the last couple times I got bit. I guess I'll wait and see if it continues to grow or if it finally shrinks down a little bit. If it gets much bigger, I suppose I'll schedule an appointment with the doc. After the MRI results came back negative, I'm incredibly weary to be going in for something unless it's an emergency.

I told one of my friends today that I'm not going to hold my breath on anything anymore. I'm getting really tired of not being able to breathe. It's my attempt at a joke on a rather serious aspect of my life. I get excited about something only to have it fall through later. Then I find something else to get excited about just to have that fall through as well. I'm tired of falling and choking. So now I'm just this little ball of hate just kind of trying not to explode at the wrong time.

Perhaps now that the contents of my stomach have decided to begin digesting properly, I'll put my new sports bra to good use after work tomorrow.

I really hope something good happens in your life (and doesn't fall through).
» randomjunk on 2014-10-09 02:17:04

It's a numbers game I think. Life does tend to lead to disappointment conclusions more often than not. But I feel failing 9 times and succeeding once is significant. For example, finding love once is much more powerful than 9 failed dates :P
» Randomrhetoric on 2014-10-11 03:09:15

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