I am...

feeling: Weak
listening to: At The Cross - Hillsong

This week was such elation... The completion of one of my core modules, a 30-CAT module... Man, 7000words and an Oral exam from hell, it's finally over! Then I'll have another exam on Tuesday and a break until my next exam two weeks later.

At least my exam on Tuesday doesn't count.

But I still wanna pass it; the teacher who's examining me hates my guts and thinks I'm mentally retarded... it's not like I'm going to give her the pleasure of failing me as well. No, I'll show her :)

Life is so... stressful right now. My mother's moping around a lot because my father's moved back to China and my family situation is in a bit of a mess. I wish she'd just have a little more faith that everything will be OK. But as Jonny said to me, "the night is darkest before dawn".

At some point, everything will go back to normal. That is, if I haven't broken down mentally already. I feel like I'm going crazy... with all the stress and pressure of exams, I still have to deal with the stress and pressure coming from my family situation.

I'm about to break.

My mind will snap at one point and I will go insane. I feel it; I'm already half-way there.

Siiighh... but at least all my essays are officially out of the way. All 15,500words of them. That's more than a final year dissertation. That's kinda disgusting for a second year! Aiya... I suck at essays as well... but then again, I suck at exams more.

My mind is hurting again and I know I'm no longer making any sense, but nothing makes sense to me any more. Is it supposed to? This is my own blog... I can spill out my own thoughts as much as I like without fearing judgement from others, because this is my life and this is what I am and this is a place just for me and therefore I shouldn't have to care what others think...

I am mentally drained.

23rd June, then it'll all be over. But I have to get past today first! Oh dear... Best get back to revision.

...and what's left is just an empty shell...

L8r,

��Kuriח

ur friends here will always lend u our eyes...
» renaye on 2010-05-29 11:21:20

KURI YOU CAN MAKE IT. Use all of your bento power lol...I miss those little things. I miss having you around all the time! I see you on facebook but it's just not the same "kuri" ya know??

BAH I guess I have no room to be complaining about my studies when you've had this much crap to deal with. I think that both of us have to remember, though, that we're lucky to even have the opportunity to stress out or brains at university. Some people never get the chance!

Hope your finals go well and that you can survive till the 23rd :)
» The-Muffin-Man on 2010-05-29 04:55:53

Congrats on the completion. And I'm with my namesake Jonny on this one: darkest before dawn. Good luck to you and your loved ones though.
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