I am...

feeling: Confused
watching: NOTHING since PPLive obviously hates me!

Okies basically I bought the new Glamour mag (there was a studentbeans offer on mags and I got tempted but decided not to subscribe in the end and chose to just fork out the �2 for a mag I just felt like getting since I barely read them anyways).

Guess what was the free gift! Haha... A book edition of "he's just not that into you" with the cast on the front cover. Well, I thought it'd be a boring read since I'd seen the movie and figured it'd just basically be pretty much a book about the movie storyline, right?

Wrong.

Actually, it's hilarious. I often find myself laughing out loud to it, totally agreeing with what's written and feeling bummed out, but hey, in a good way. And it definitely makes me come to my senses sometimes!!

But, according to this book, this guy--we'll call him 'n', shall we? So, according to this book, n is completely uninterested, while this other guy, 'x' (yeah I'm pulling out the algebra now!) is.

Problem: I'm fairly not too into x (not that I just completely didn't give him a chance but seriously, we're faaar too different people) but am sitting on the fence about n. N by the book is supposedly not into me but by his actions, I'm not too sure?

Why would someone not into you be willing to come all the way up to visit you, from two different train journeys that would cost up to �40, just to see you for a day because he has nowhere to stay over?

Granted, he would have been half way at the time already and claimed "it would have been easy to pop up", but tbh, it wouldn't have been that easy. The train tickets, if not booked in advance, are like �16-�25 return and I doubt he's loaded.

But yeah since I was erm... having an off day at one point when he texted me, I told him rudely not to bother coming (which I apologised profusely for after, but he's not coming anymore anyways cos I just bare don't have the time anyway), but we are now meeting in London instead for a day...

Ok so... I suggested meeting up that time, with what we'd planned originally, but he then added after, why not go watch a west-end musical after? And after I told him I'd be hella poor, he offered to pay for me.

...........................I'M CONFUSED?!?!?!

West end tickets aren't exactly cheap??? Dno. Maybe I should just be under the impression he's loaded then. No idea... he doesn't seem that rich to me?? But I've always been awful at judging who is and who isnt o_o;;

Anyways, I'm still on the fence. Will see after the meeting in London :) Don't particularly like him atm tho. Thing is, I would have thought him coming up to see me wouldn't have been a big deal either had my friends not been like 'er... yeah it is?!' so... o_o;; dno... I've had plenty of guy friends come visit me so I'm pretty used to it, plus I'm very used to hanging out with guys alone as friends cos I have so many of them.

Confuuuuuuuuuusioooooooooon! But yus, either way, I need to sleep now, gnight all! ^^

Btw, it is my personal mission to make a blog post at 12:34:56 07/08/09 -- aka, tmr x]

"...i don't even know how to cheer you up anymore...
will you teach me?
tell me,
what makes you smile these days...?

what makes you cry, what gets you down,
then what makes you happy again...

do you still like what you used to?
things have changed a lot, haven't they?
help me get things back to the way it was...

please...?

it's a relationship worth saving.
you never forget the one who has touched you the most in your life.
for me it was

you

please,
don't let me be pouring my heart out to you in vain..."

and as i sit here staring into space and typing out a letter i will never send and you will never read, i think to myself... how different things might have been...

...if i'd only stayed...

L8r,

��Kuriח

i'm also confused. u r talking bout the guy in the mag or the guy who IS really coming to visit u?


» renaye on 2009-08-06 07:21:19

im confused too
» jolenesiah on 2009-08-06 09:48:39

Didn't read your blog, sorry. I will have to catch up later. It seems I've missed so much... Btw, where's your cbox? :/
» Katrina on 2009-08-07 01:50:09

Oh me oh my. N sounds totally like this guy who was chasing one of my best friends but unfortunately he didn't make it. Awww.. I'd say its sweet of him but honey, don't be too confused, just go with the flow and see how it goes. Sometmes magazines are for stereotypes and we don't always fit in there. I so wanna know the outcome!!

Btw, what html code did you use for the (i think it is) peom you typed at the end of the post?
» Nuttz on 2009-08-07 02:40:04

Why so confused?
ndoesn't have to be THAT interested in you to spend money to see a friend. Honest. Guys can be crazy. I've spent over 400 dollars this year buying friends stuff, and plan to spend about 300 more, leaving me 300 dollars in debt. Just something about girls that makes a guy want to spend, regardless of the presence of infatuation.

Good luck and have fun!
» rrzhang001 on 2009-08-07 02:47:56

Wow, free book with the purchase of a magazine? Good deal.
» randomjunk on 2009-08-07 04:08:39

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