Well....let's see three entries in a week, this isn't going to happen again for awhile...but I'm having a LOT of crap going on in my life right now. (I'm sure I'm going to sound pathetic for this one)

First off, Robert IS going out of town on Valentine's day weekend....which means I'm going to be alone for the day (Again....::sigh::) since I changed my plans w/ Rob, and I'm NOT going to ask him to change whatever plans he has (if he has any, I'm tired of trying to have people schedule things when I want them to) but I'm hopefully going to see Robert on Sunday (If he's feeling better) But I honestly don't want to see people right now, I just want to sit at home, and do nothing....

Let's see how Feb. has gone this far.....
Sunday-Find out close friend dies
Wednesday-Robert has surgury (But it's minor so no biggie right? NOT!!)
Thursday...

Let's get into today shall we? Well, work sucked as normal. But my one ferret, Foxxy hasn't been a little off colour lately, so I asked my mom to talk to the shelter we were fostering her for, and maybe take her to the vet. My mom DID take her to the vet, and we found out she had a tumor in her tummy, which the only way to do anything about that was to perform surgury. And since she was 6 years old, there isn't any way that she would survive it, so they put her to sleep ::sob::. Also, today was when I found out Robert IS going to FL next weekend. I have two tests next week to study for (You know my minds NOT on that....Which I probably should start reading the textbooks huh???) I feel like I'm at the breaking point, and I haven't been there in a VERY long time, I think it was like Junior year since I've been like this (Jr. year of High School). I HATE depression....because no matter what anyone does, it doesn't help me. Right now I just feel like the WHOLE world is against me, and that I'm going to lose in one way or another. But I know what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, but sometimes you have to breakdown for that strength to occur. (Hey, maybe I should do some inspiriational speaking when I'm like this). But honestly, Saturday night, I'm just going to stay at home, and curl up and stay in bed all night. and not get up until 9 on Sunday morning ::hums Sunday Morning by No Doubt::

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