well, yesterday was my last day of high school. no more being babysitted by my teachers or the adminstration. in college you mostly have to do things on your own. it'll be different, there'll be classes with over 100 students, and i doubt that the teacher will care about any of them, let alone remember their names. i'll miss that about high school, everyone seemed so close. of course i'll miss all my younger friends too, it sucks that i won't see them as often. yesterday i got to hang out with all my website science buddies, the biggest nerds in the school, just kidding! we all know that the t.v production kids are the nerds. anyway, i got to take lots of pictures of everyone. mrs. shugars started crying towards the end of class because we all gave her a card. i was on the verge of tears to. i got to hug lots of people, hopefull i'll see them again at graduation. after mrs. shugars class, i went to english. i was almost late because i was hanging around with my friends. i finally saw xavier, whom i hadn't seen all week. i wish i could've talked with them more. the final for ms. lamont was super easy. mr. stuber came in the middle of class time to exact his revenge on us for throwing paper balls at his class after the first assembly of the year. luckily, i didn't get hit with the silly string but everyone else did. what a mess! ms. lamont started crying during the last few minutes of class and then most of the girls started bawling too. i got to take more pictures with everyone, though i wish i could've taken a group picture of everyone in the class. people were also playing music with their cells. jeremy was playing the graduation song, while i asked patrick to play "good riddance". marisol wrote ms. lamont a farewell message on the white board. eveyone got to hang out in portable 4 one last time. when the bell rang, everyone got to hug ms. lamont and say goodbye. even after the last bell, people were still hangin' around wanting to talk to their friends and take pictures. it was a sad day, but i still have to graduate, that'll be the final goodbye. that's when it'll really be over, then what?

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

forget it, it's none of my business anyway.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

don't analyze it.

but i can't help it.

today i had an interesting conversation with my friend. it started simple enough, i asked him if he registered for his college classes and then the subject changed to movies. we just talked randomly, i tried to convice him to make film his major, but he said he wasn't good enough. i told him it doesn't matter because watching movies is what he like to do, he should at least give it a shot.

halfway into our conversation, i said that i was tired. he was like, "you're tired? i had to work on my portfolio, help my friend with their essay and i was talking to my other friend until 2:30." i made fun of him for talking to his friend until 2:30. i asked him if he liked her he said, " she's weird, in a way i like her, but she's not my type" i asked him what his type was and he got quiet. i said name an actress that he likes, but he still didn't say anything, so i started naming some. i said drew barrymore, cameron diaz, then i said lucy liu. he said he liked her. i said zhang ziyi and he said he liked her. finally i was like "maggie q" and he said yeah. so what does he have an asian fetish? she is asian. but even as i was saying those names i felt like i was leading him along. finally he was very defensive and said, "it doesn't matter anyway", because she always hangs with her ex. does he like her? maybe he's gay? i dunno.

i think he's like that one guy friend girls talk to and tell all their relationship troubles to, but they can only see him as just a friend and never anything more. that's why most of his friends are girls. they're probably like," wow, you're such a good listener!" then they move on to the next guy that'll break their heart.

also on this girl he might like, i know i'm just jealous, because she's like the typical girl boys like. she's pretty and flirty. why do boys like girls like that? but damn, sometimes she can be annoying. she tries to act all weird and be cute by talking about totally random things. lately, she seems to be trying to get closer to him, maybe it's because of the breakup and because her other friend in the class stopped talking to her. edit: i know she's just using him. she's the type who likes to lead nice guys on, she wants them to like her because she knows they can't have her. once they move on, she doesn't like it. she misses their attention. FUCKING ATTENTION WHORE!

ugh! don't worry, soon i'll graduate and summer will come. i'll have plenty of time to move on.

edit: if he does like her, then he's just another one of those stupid boys who only likes girls who are stupid and shallow. i really thought he wasn't, i thought he was diffrent. screw him! i don't need someone who can't even work by himself, he always needs someone to tell him what to do. BIG FUCKIN' BABY! he's also homophobic, a loner, annoying, likes crappy movies and actors, ignorant, likes crappy emo music . . . do i still like him, or am i just jealous that this girl seems closer to him than me? WHAT THE FUCK! I DON'T THINK I EVEN KNOW ANYMORE. i've probably spent so much time thinking about this issue, that i've gotten myself confused. but that's what i do DAMN IT! i obsess over every little thing! WHY DO I DO THIS!?! FUCK GET OVER IT

now i feel better.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!