because I really need too. *sighs* Life doesnt seem to becoming less...confusing. I really do like Skylar, but yet, apart of me, doesnt like how he says things to me or other people. Im not going to like go out and change the person that he is because that is who he is, and I respect that, just I dont know. Sometimes I feel like its two worlds and just....they are colliding and I cant do anything about it. I really like him, I dunno if I love him, but I like him...it just seems like he doesnt act like much of a boyfriend. God isnt that horriable and selfish of me to say? Omg..Im starting to sound like someone that I definatly dont want to sound like. *sighs* Im just not having a good beginning of the week I guess. I just want to go to bed and not get up in the morning and just run away from all my problems because I fucking cant deal with them. I need someone to seriously save me, and no one is hardly lending me a hand. I ask someone nicely, what would you do if you were me, and I get dump his sorry ass, and seriously...Excuse me..let's talk about all the guys you went out with and see how much worse they are compared to mine, thank you very much. I dont deserve Skylar...friggin hell..I just got told tonight that I dont deserve him. Then you know what you stupid people, friggin do it for me because obviously I have more heart, feeling, and care for this boy than you do. You have no fucking idea how much he doesnt deserve this shit that Im putting him through. Nothing at all. Seriously Skylar, answer me this...why did you want to be with me? Because Id sure as hell would love to know... Im sorry... Im tired and Im pissed..... I dunno what to do... maybe it is because I havent been alone with you in awhile.... I hate life right now, for some fucking reason it decided to screw me in the fucking ass... peace





listening to: Papa Roach: Scars
mood: Pissed

wowo sounds like youve had a hard time. if you need to talk you know i can listen. hope to hear from you
» theD1 on 2005-05-04 07:26:38

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