Speak to My Finger

I attended a two-day workshop on emceeing and today was the last day.

A lot of dejavu happened. First day was ... the facilitator has an activity where the participants grouped in two and one of them will introduce the partner to everyone. Upon listening to the instruction, I told myself I won't be the first victim because I'm making my self staying low though I sat second row from the facilitator. Deep inside my heart, I saw images of the facilitator calling me FIRST three times. And my head went YEA RIGHT. The facilitator also informed us that he will be calling on randomly. And so,the facilitator called upon me FIRST. And I went blank. HA!

Then later ... a participant told me she was a student at a newly opened college and then when I came back, I realised I HAD this conversation before. Actually, I have been to her classroom ... I think I have seen her in my dreams because I was 'looking' from behind ...

Then today ... my partner and I were discussing something and I realised I had this situation before. I have sat at the position and I saw the colour of my partner's cloth like today in my dream.

Lesson learnt: RECORD MY DREAMS.

Well, on the fun side, I have also dreamed myself on Ayumi Hamasaki's stage... yes she was in the changing room whatsoever and I was on her stage.

The workshop ending was cool because we had to do an activity, where the group members have to play a role of characters in an event. And I was chosen to be an emcee - rather was no one wanted to be an emcee and everyone pointed at me. I had good pronunciation but the facilitator evaluated that my voice had no strength ... so it did not reach to the end of the hall. Well, it wasn't the first time I was told. I was in fact been told in every event I emceed. Not funny. And I don't know how I should improve on it. I also have this problem in singing too. My teachers often tell me I don't sing out loud. Where is my voice? The facilitator also mentioned that I should smile more. It, seriously, pierced my heart and head listening to that. I'm well known to be an optimistic person who always smiles. So what happened? Am I something wrong? The facilitator added that I looked like a serious person without the smiles. I feel he actually wanted to say more but he was holding back or instead he put it in a nice way. But I know what he meant. He added I will be more suitable to emcee serious events. HA! Spot on.

But I'm still sad ... why can't I sing out loud. Where is my voice? Why? The facilitator advised me to try other public speaking methods... his advise was to try to be a trainer. Good idea. Train people to do what? Kill ants like I did in my bathroom? Be a lecturer doesn't give me money though I may like to do it... trainer .. sounds like a good idea. But train on what???!!!

I'm so depressed.

so weird about the deja vu!!

Maybe to make your voice louder you can practice singing in the shower as loud as possible. Or why don't they just give you a microphone?
» Zanzibar on 2010-07-05 01:09:27

Yes I agree with the above comment. Just use the microphone when you become an emcee.
» mun (124.82.62.12) on 2010-07-05 02:20:15

I have this problem too, i can't sing out loud also. But I don't see this as a major issue lah, every person is unique right? hehe.

I too have the dejavu situation many times before. Sometimes it really puzzled me... what's the explanation for this??
» Elizebeth D.L. (24.87.33.128) on 2010-07-07 01:52:10

Yes, I do listen to some jpop songs.
» mun (60.51.92.223) on 2010-07-08 09:24:45

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» Roland (60.217.232.82) on 2010-09-04 06:59:07

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