Time to do... nothing for a couple days.

I was thinking about time on my bike ride home today. What it is, what it means.

Does time exist without movement and change? If you were in an entirely static environment, what would time mean? Would it even be there? There would be no way to tell. But then again, just because you can't perceive something doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Hm. I guess in this scenario the processes within your own body would also have to stop, but then you'd be dead (or at least not conscious?), so there would be no perception of the existence or nonexistence of time (probably?).

Sometimes I feel like I'm kind of caught between two conflicting points of view. On the one hand, I want very much to help people and be supportive and caring. On the other hand, I have a pretty existential view of things and often feel that our lives are brief and inherently meaningless. That doesn't bother me, but I also wonder what the point of attempting to "make a difference" is sometimes. Then again, I guess there doesn't have to be a point. If it feels good to be altruistic, that's a valid enough reason, isn't it? Lack of meaning means there's no point to doing things, but there's also no point to not doing things. No point to anything... So just do whatever you want. :P

Then again, I'm not really into anarchy. So... do whatever you want within acceptable social boundaries? (Which mean nothing of course, but I think it should be self-evident that all the rules we follow do make our lives easier to some extent. If we didn't work together as people we'd have none of these modern conveniences)

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After school today I walked around with Jenny for exercise, even though it was over 90 degrees outside and not great weather to be moving around. Apparently she thought Alex was into me too. She asked if we had hung out a lot and if anything was... going on with that. >_> I had to explain to her that we weren't into each other like that and were not compatible in that way. She hangs around a lot with these two people in our class who did get together, so maybe she sort of sees signs of romance now where there aren't any... I dunno.

I dunno what my good thing would be for today. Fro might be having a party later in the month, so that could be cool I guess. I don't know how I'd get there though.

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I've been listening to a lot of rock/alternative/metal(?) lately. All the stuff that used to play on the radio when I was in high school and Channel 104.9 was still around. Memories...

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