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Memores acti prudentes futuri


You're unsure if I am a loose end or a strand
that waits for you to mend or understand
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
TICoSME
Musicalities!
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A Distant Soil (Some nudity)
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Blue Milk Special
Bug
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Creatures in My Head
Damn You Auto Correct!
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And in passing
Friday, October 1, 2010
1:30 AM. It's so convenient to have that little clock in the corner of the screen, isn't it? Unfortunately, it makes it easy to glance at it every five seconds as I wait for my boyfriend to get here. While typing that sentence I probably looked at least three times.

I keep looking at the calendar, too. Seeing as it no longer September, I turned the page. I'm not thoroughly enthused with my calendar this year, but October has a nice picture. It's a man with a cane and top hat, and there are fat owls flying round his head. He looks rather serious.

Funny how he isn't even here yet and I'm already thinking about what it'll be like when he's gone. We will probably exchange some "miss you"s and "I wish you were here"s, but life will go on as usual otherwise.

I went to the doctor today to get a referral. She asked me if I'd had any thoughts of self harm. "All the time," I thought. But I just said "yeah". It occurred to me to mention that I never do harm myself, no matter how much I may think of it, but she seemed concerned anyway. She told me to go the the hospital immediately the next time I had such thoughts. I found the whole thing quite amusing. What happens if I show up at the hospital and say "I was contemplating banging my head into the wall and laughing hysterically until I collapse on the floor and the laughter turns to uncontrollable sobbing. Wasn't going to do it, but I was told to come here if I thought about it"?

Fun times. (I'm actually in a pretty good mood right now, so don't worry)

She told me I might want to consider taking twenty minute walks a few times a week to decrease stress and relax a bit. Not a bad idea, I guess. I'd have more incentive to start if I had somewhere to go or someone to go with, though.

I don't want to make this entry too long, so I guess I'll do some homework while I wait for him...

---Edit---

If you have time to kill and like Choose Your Own Adventure stories, I've got a link you might like right here:

CLICKIES

(I've also added it to the KtB module, under the Webcomics header, although I guess TECHNICALLY it's not really a webcomic...)
5 Comments.


Heh.. I have suicidal thoughts too and I usually end up eating or driving 20-30kmh over the speed limit or simply talk to myself... and I think I'm going to get chucked into the asylum if I ever go to the hospital because of that.
» Nuttz on 2010-10-01 06:25:07

I have gone to therapy because of suicidle thought and attempts. I've struggled with it all my life. As I've grown up, I've learned ways to avoid these thoughts. I think of the good I have in my life and why I would throw that away.

Choose your own adventure was kinda funny
» Midnight on 2010-10-01 08:17:09

Good ur in a good mood. It would be funny to go to the hospital over something small like wanting to hit your head.. then just kinda be like.. .ehh nevermind.. .feeling's gone. I'm sure it'll run the doctors crazy!

And I LOVE choose your own adventures! lol
» CPKviperpheonix on 2010-10-01 06:37:20

I think everyone get suicidal thoughts some time in their lives. I pretty sure spent 8th grade year thinking about them :P Unhealthy but normal, I would say haha.
» frostbitten on 2010-10-01 09:38:52

Yeah, you're probably right. Especially now that they've found that planet that they think would be 'just right' (a la Goldilocks) for life. How exciting.
But I just went through this really sceptical phase earlier this year and it made me wonder if I my obsession with the X-Files was making my beliefs somewhat biased...

P.S. I can definitely recommend walks for helping with stress and anxiety and sadness. It really helps. Sunlight can do amazing things.

Also - sleep. Helps.
» Sarah on 2010-10-02 09:03:48

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