Marc's Aunt offered to take Miles for me today so I could have a break and get a few things done. I'm sitting here in my house all by myself and can't think of the last time it was like this. It's weird but very welcome lol.

On another note, I've decided I hate getting older. I'll be 25 in less 2 months and 2 days and I think I'm going to have a pre-midlife crisis about it. I just feel so old. I know it's probably because I have led a very interesting albeit wild and insane life up until the past year or so but I just feel like I'm 50 not 24. Ugh. It could also be because it's less than 2 weeks until Miles is one though...probably a combination of the two. I have been so stressed lately too. I just miss the simpler times of less responsibility or even none. I also miss Mississippi alot. I LOVE kentucky, don't get me wrong, but what is living in a wonderful place without your family and friends to share it with. There are a lot of aspects of MS as a place I miss too though, it is just very reminisenct of times past. My husband says it's like stepping back in time a few decades except they have cell phones and flat screens lol. All of this seems to have been weighing on me pretty heavily though, on the way home "The End of Innocence" by Don Henley came on and it made me cry. Granted I have always held some emotional attachment to that song because it came out a year or so before I was adopted and it was pretty popular still and my mom and I used to sing it together a lot and you know how some songs just remind you of another time.. it's one of those for me. But it was also listening to the words and the beautiful music too. You can listen to the song and/or watch the video HERE if you feel so inclined.

And on that note I'm done.

Lyrics (I think the music is totally part of the beauty in this song but I'll post these just because lol)

Remember when the days were long
And rolled beneath a deep blue sky
Didn't have a care in the world
With mommy and daddy standing by

When "happily ever after" fails
And we've been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers dwell on small details
Since daddy had to fly

But I know a place where we can go
That's still untouched by man
We'll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind

You can lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

O' beautiful, for spacious skies
But now those skies are threatening
They're beating plowshares into swords
For this tired old man that we elected king

Armchair warriors often fail
And we've been poisoned by these fairy tales
The lawyers clean up all details
Since daddy had to lie

But I know a place where we can go
And wash away this sin
We'll sit and watch the clouds roll by
And the tall grass wave in the wind

Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair spill all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

Who knows how long this will last
Now we've come so far, so fast
But, somewhere back there in the dust
That same small town in each of us
I need to remember this
So baby give me just one kiss
And let me take a long last look
Before we say good bye

Just lay your head back on the ground
And let your hair fall all around me
Offer up your best defense
But this is the end
This is the end of the innocence

i don't know this song, which is surprising to me, as you've only got a year on me. strange. i will look it up later.

re: rock-n-bowl, a.k.a. galaxy bowl, a.k.a. midnight bowl, is where you go to a bowling alley late at night and they turn all the lights off and blast music and lights and junk. it's like a rave, but for bowling.
» thaitanic on 2010-04-16 12:23:37

Re:Its easy for me to be mature about the situation because I knew that we weren't making each other happy. And she makes him happy and I'm happier now. It was obviously the right decision.
» SporadicFunk on 2010-04-19 01:28:30

Re: Oh no, you're not intrusive or whatever at all, I really appreciate your baby birthing knowledge! lol. I want to try to get her to wait but I think she's afraid if she waits she'll HAVE to get a c-section....who knows. I'mma be calling today to tell her to get up and walk around.

I'll tell her your other helpful tips and see how they work! Thanks! ^_^

» SporadicFunk on 2010-04-21 10:45:46

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