I've been slightly vague in a few of my other entries.

My life. hmmm....where to start...I know!

Once upon a time....
lol, i'd like my life to start like that. In any case, things have been going well. Classes are where they should be for the most part. Linguistics i'm ashamed to say is starting to entice me, but this also means that i'm doing pretty dang well in it. Philosophy is still has my intrest in a death grip, but it's starting to hold on so tightly that i'm losing concioiusness. In other words, the class is starting to give me a headache. It's all very intresting and the points of discussion are incredibly thought provoking, but I'm just not that quick on my feet. I always think up things to say long after the fact, and thusly my participation in that class is usually limited to me frantically scurrying around my brain trying to put emotions into feelings and passionately taking notes. Astronomy is - as always - great. I have my first lab at the observatory tomorrow. I love stars. I always have, but through certain experiences and situations i've grown to really appreciate and love them even more.

Family is doing well. Not much to report there. My mom thought she was going to have to have surgery again (this time on her lower back) the MRI came back and they said it looks like they don't have to. My brother is still working and my dad is nearly fully recovered.

One of my best friends is supposed to be getting married this Saturday. But, I recieved a text message yesterday that said "My wedding is off until further notice". AND, this is the second time. They've only been engaged for a month. I don't know what happened. I don't blame her for growing distant, she's got other things on her mind, and i'm not in the place of importance I once was - it's as it should be. But, i'd at least like to know what's going on in the woman's life! When I told my mom about it she said that if the wedding is cancled, or something like that that I should just stay up here. We can't afford a trip down 'just because' right now. I'll be back probably before the start of Fall though.

Well, that seems to be most if not all of my life at the current moment - besides random facts (i.e. I have to take my car into the shop, I need to go get my contacts) that no one really cares that much about. So....yea.

Do you ever wonder what things would have been like? Or....we're like? For instance: I think in another life I was an explorere. An Adventuer. Someone who had people at their command and who took charge. Do you think dormant feelings are really dormant? Can they burst forth at any given moment? What causes them to be dormant? Is there some point in our life where we choose what feelings will be dominant? How do you know which is right or better? Is there even such a thing? If it's just different...well, then what's the point in wondering any of this? Do you ever wonder who you would have been had you choosen those other feelings? Does anyone else even know what i'm talking about? lol. I wonder where I would be if I hadn't changed. Who I would be and what my life would be like. Do you think there's purpose to it? Like those old RL Stein books that had 1,000 outcomes? One decision after another will affect the whole story. Decisons, situations, circumstances, logic, emotion....what's the point of all that stuff if it doesn't MEAN anything? Then again...nothing can mean nothing. So, it has to mean SOMETHING....but what? Will we ever know? Will I?
meh, this probably doesn't even make any sense. I'm being weird and ramble-y

I think that we choose to repress feelings that we either A) disagree with, or B) are emberassed of,and those are the dormant feelings.. Loathing, hate, lust, anger can all be feelings that we subject to the term " dormant feelings," because if we freely expressed them.. could lead others to assume that those feelings dictate who we are.
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I miss those R. L. Stein books. :(
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