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Books I have completed reading since January 2021:

1. The Enchanted - Rene Denfield
Dancing butterfly
Friday. 10.21.11 3:52 am
Sometimes I just have to be careful with not only what I wish but what I think. My new assignment for the moment is to differentiate god granting my wish and premonition. Certain things I saw in my mind or feel came true during my quarantine.

I have wanted to dance the Ethnic Borneo, but was not chosen. I like the dance because I like its gentle movement, albeit I'm not flexible in dancing. But I'm somehow very grateful that I have basic dancing knowledge.

As you all know I'm in quarantine, practicing a 75-minute dance within 4 days. One of the dances is Ethnic Borneo; I thought I'm not going to dance it since I'm not chosen for a port-of-call performance which is also Ethnic Borneo. But because I was passing by the choreographer who was about to conduct the training, he asked me to be in. Oh well, I was thrill nonetheless. And I really enjoy my dances.

I also need to ask the choreographer why I was chosen to lead 3 opening performances, and I got so pressured because I'm slow in catching the entering tune.

Sigh. I will do my best! Ganbare!

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Friday. 10.14.11 7:39 pm
I will be flying off to Japan in 8 days time as a Malaysian Youth Ambassador. I wonder how would I feel on the 25th in the plane. Excited? No idea. Don't wanna think about it. Just bring it on!

I will be having homestay in Hakodate, the south of Hokkaido. How fortunate is that? I hope my Japanese Yen is enough to last me throughout my stay there.

I will be away for two months, but I will be updating this blog every now and then. So please help me to click on the ads!!!

Thank you!

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Sunday, October 9, 2011
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Home or Stranger
Friday, October 7, 2011
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In and out
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
I thought he and I would be good friends, but I was wrong, or maybe he has a reason behind his actions. But I don't buy it very well. I don't think severing ties with every friend you have at workplace just because you got fired is one good reason. I cried silently and was extremely hurt when I was treated that way. He doesn't want to talk to me further. And for whatever reason, I realised I don't have to be sad for this kind of friend.

In return, I had one hell of a fun weekend with my bunch of team mates. We played a traditional Indian game called Kabadi, and we were playing it in the evenings when majority of the members have left leaving the 10 of us or so teaching others to play. It was so crazy that if I could I would be rolling on the floor while laughing. We laughed so much till my voice sore. Later, we had a sharing session, and I found out out that they are no different than me. They too cried, laughed, and got hurt by other team members when I thought I was the only one. But unfortunately, I was THE first victim.

It all happened when these team members requested me to talk to another member that majority would like to switch emcee. Knowing this member too well, I was not too happy to hear that I'm given the baddie job. And from there, I discovered the pain and hurt this member has caused in my other team mates. And all the while I thought the pain and hurt was caused by my existence in the group as assistant leader (I guess I played a part of that). Some girls cried and I offered a pathetic torn tissue I found from my pocket. And a few guys were sort of telling the girls to 'shut up' about this kind of problem. Oh well, guys being guys.

I thought all this while that my team leader and this member get along very well and was surprised to find out how he got victimised by her too. But I was THE first victim of hers.

One afternoon at work, she sent me a message on Facebook that many people in the team dislike me. Well, I knew that a long time ago, but I never knew exactly who. I was cool when I read that message and my reply was what I can do to improve? She didn't reply. Instead, I replied her what makes you think people also don't like you? She kept quiet. Because I know she is one of the people that dislike me. I don't even know what I have done to her to receive such blows.

The blow was I got complained to the program coordinator and I was called a control freak. I was told I'm too a little pro active leader, and I should trust my members. And the person who lodged the complain was this member who I need to talk to that we are changing her to another as emcee.

I don't take this lightly, for this is not me. I may be a control freak, because I'm a perfectionist, but I would never compromise people's space to grow and develop as an individual. I don't appreciate such slander.

My team leader and I and another team member would be talking to her about this problem.

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How did I fall in love with you?
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Another Yao Si Ting song to share with you all. I'm surprised that the original singer of this song is Backstreet Boys! And I prefer her version, unfortunately.

I find this song is very sad. And it somehow hammered in my head for the past one whole week. I kept singing wherever I went today. Strange.

Hope you guys like it. =)

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