A friend of mine doesn't seem to understand my language. I told him to stop introducing me to his friends and yet he'a still doing it. I know it's rude to tell him off to stop when it's just an initiative of him to expand my networking. But two of his friends I have talked to are awful.

The first one really indicated he has something to hide. The way he replied me really gave me the creeps. The first thing he said "you got a charming face." I thought he was referring to my MSN avatar that reveals a South Park character. Then later I realised he was referring to my Friendster photo. Not wanting to discriminate people and being 'arrogant', I just continued talking and down the road he kept on asking my sexuality and then about other people's sexuality. I thought he was gay and so I thought he wanted to make sure I won't discriminate him but further down the road... It became horribly uncomfortable so I ended banning him for good.

I told my friend off to STOP giving out my msn address. And I nearly wanted to scream top of my lungs because my friend knowing I would be in danger talking to him gave out my msn address due to pressure and insistence by that freaking guy! And he himself admitted he is afraid of talking to that troublesome guy. I rolled my eyes.

Today ... there was this girl - again my friend's friend - kept on asking for my MSN approval and I gave in because I wanted to ban her later. But I totally forgotten. So we ended up chatting. She's freaking ill-mannered. According to what I learnt from our conversation, she sells sex products online. I asked condoms? She said no ... she said something good for the gender's intimate part. I scratched my head. Later she asked me if I'm single or married. I asked her back if she wanted to do a sales pitch to me. She heeded it and added if I wanted sex and money. Oh my GOD. I have had enough. Immediately, I told her nice chatting with you and see you on the banning list.

I'm seriously going to SCREAM into my friend's ear. How could he again gives out my msn address 'nonchalantly' I believe? He said once before "I was afraid of adding strangers onto my MSN." Hey what the HELL do you know about me? I have added so many strangers before but all of them are normal and anime/manga fans! And your friends are weird! It's extremely and absolutely intolerable for me. I can't stand lewd people. Strangers I have added like Nuttz and talked to like Katrina are so normal people!!!! How can you freaking say "I was afraid of adding strangers"? My friend is really painting me a bad image of himself. And every time he invites me to some conversation I'm not even interested in.

I told him a few times that I'm not interested knowing his friends. Can't he understand English or I need to scream on the phone to get the message across??

ARGH!!!!!!! AM I BEING TOO NICE? Yea that's what my ex-collegmates said. They even mocked me to write a book on it.

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I bought a figure drawing last Wednesday and I got so excited about it because I want to try out the lessons from the book.

I drew something in the office yesterday because I got a headache from work. Yes I'm now having a lot of work and they give me headache. So I drew something out of my headache. And my workmate said the drawing is a reflection of my mood. I told her the character is born from a tragedy befallen on her. And my workmate said the mood I was having at that moment is born through a character. What is worse is the character of mine is a sort of a pyscho youngster. And my friend really thinks my mood at that moment is to kill someone. Hahaha.

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My mum was telling me how this doctor she knows doesn't look like a doctor because of his appearance and dressing. People who don't know him personally may never even thought he's a doctor. How funny people nowadays still judge other people by its cover even though our world is getting smaller day by day.

Still remember those news in the local newspapers about the increasing number of Black students in Malaysia and in some areas? Some people discriminate them just because some Black people are fraughts. So with some news about some hot sex stuff about Malaysians... is it alright to say ALL Malaysians are sex maniacs and extremely crazy about sex? Or something like that. I think that's discrimination. Regardless of skin colour and gender, these foreign people in Malaysia just want to get money and education and then go somewhere else to achieve their dreams. Have we forget that they too have dreams? And of course some people might dream of achieving them through means that are not 'approved' by society.

But on the whole... imagine yourself going to a foreign country to work or study and you receive lots of discrimination just because of your skin. What do you think and what are you thinking the moment you were discriminated? Can't imagine yourself. Ok. Let's try imagine your kids going off to an unknown country to study. Won't you be worried of your kids safety? Same thing to these foreigners. They too have families and they just hope they get remittants. That's all. And of course there is another side of the coin...

I read Dina Zaman's article in today's newspaper. How sad it is. It's also about skin colour. Why people must judge people on skin colour? Why some people take this issue as something so serious?? I read somewhere that god gives us so many colours because it's a lesson for us to get along with each other or something like that. I find that article very meaningful and I think I read it on an African site... Don't really remember.

And I wish our world is much more at peace and more matured in handling skin colour issue.

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I'm not too sure if something is bugging my inner self but I have been thinking things for some hours already. I find them very disturbing which I don't know how to put into words. Oh well I'm always having difficulties in explaining my thoughts into words...

One of the things I have been thinking is more of a reflection of yesterday actions. A friend of mine was supposed to have lunch with me yesterday but somehow he totally 'forgot' about it and only 'remembered' me when he was in a state of penniless. He asked me to lend him money because he overspent 23k in a night. I'm not too sure of the details of his shopping spree but all I know is 23k a night? Isn't that too much? Well I did lend him some money knowing that it was an extreme investment where I won't even get back my raw capital. My mum was furious with his attitudes for exploiting me since he knew so many Tom Dick and Harry but why me to his rescue. I decided to lend him on the basis that I have experienced a similar situation before - I know the state of helplessness. But if he's not returning my money, I would surely haunt him and I think I still remember his house location... Damn ... I don't know his office number. Jolenesiah, should we try to practise our spying skills again? I seriously don't like to be taken advantage of. Who likes by the way? Another business idea to think of - AH LONG ENTERPRISE (Ah Long is a term used in Malaysia to refer to money lender).

The guy I lent money to seriously has financial problems. Surely it's none of my business but I never understood what is there to buy. A friend of mine asked me "How can you resist of not buying those so CUTE things" and some money spending related qs. I seriously don't indulge in buying cute things other than hunting for gifts/ presents. I never pampered myself buying cute things but only food like lunch/dinner at Chillies, coffee from Sans Francisco or an expensive cake. Clothes, bags, accessories are rare on my buying list, But recently I bought a few t-shirts for 50% off their original prices and a pair of jeans. Accessories? I have not been getting earrings lately simply because the designs nowadays are too unpleasant for my collection. Bags? Why buy bags if my mum could redeem from her credit card centre and Bonus Link? And who cares if the bags are not branded? As long they are usable and they look like "branded" you don't owe any explanation to anyone except your bank account.

I have only one credit card and its limit is RM 4k. But I have set my own limit on its usage to below RM 300 max. Why want to waste tomorrow's spending for today's excessive pleasure? Fashion trends, eletronical trends and whatever trends are not going to be always updated so why in the hurry to buy as though they are like chipsmore "now you see now you don't". So why don't do research before buying impulsively? If you really have this overpowering urge to buy the item ... just try walking one round of the shopping complex to distract yourself and then sit on the bench and ask yourself whether you need that item or not. If you know you can survive without that item just tell yourself "I will buy it tomorrow" and tomorrow never dies... Then you will forget about your craving.

I have a friend who told me she must have a lot of cash in her wallet. I went gag because I only have RM 50 the most in my wallet and that would last me at least a week if I brought my own lunch everyday. Even then sometimes my lunch would only cost me RM 2.50 - just friend noodle from some makcik on the roadside. And that's included my afternoon snack. I think my senior would only have RM 5 in her purse but I think that's too extreme.

My wallet has so little money? Yea I usually remove a large sum of money from my main account to another account. So the main account would only have the amount I needed to survive for the whole month. And the rest I will lock up in fixed deposit because I know my bad habit of using extra cash when it is accessible. But I'm planning to lock the money in money market then I can earn interest everyday ... hahaha.. I think so...

I sounded very easily but it is extraordinarily to execute. Necessity things have been going up and up but our purchasing power is stagnant for most of us. Don't you think so?

This article is pretty good: Where's My Money Gone?

My new year resolution is to not write blog entries that sounded like I'm committing suicide.

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It's the last day of 2007. I don't know what to write to wrap up 2007 because I wish today is not the last day.

I have learnt a lot of things in year 2007 from work to personal life. A lot of things running in my mind but I'm not going to highlight many things. I want to keep some of them personal.

I think I should have done more things in year 2007. I remembered telling myself the things I wanted to achieve in 2007 on the last day of 2006. And I can tell myself today that I haven't even achieved a single one. I kinda feel regret and I know I have told myself I don't want to live a regretful live. And today I'm going to tell myself again I want to maximise my life. I want to achieve at least one thing on my list.

I have added a new resolution for 2008 that is to have more fun with life and something else.

Happy New Year to all of you. All the best to myself and to you.

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It's funny that my previous blog about Boxing Day received a lot of comments. I was actually pretty surprised because many readers thought it is boxing as in punching people and day as in a day to celebrate it. Holycow. What have I done?! I thought that term is quite common for people to open presents the day after christmas. Haha...

I really had a good laugh. I'm sure all readers too!

Happy New Year and all the best for 2008!

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