Oh man.

I haven't been back to my room since last Wednesday....I am BEAT. 4am flight, arrived in Texas that evening and worked on a show for the Dallas Mavericks for 4 hours, woke up at 8 the next morning, did a school show, worked with PE classes for 5 hours, did the Mavs halftime that night, 6 hours of workshop the next day, bowling, sleep, 6 hours of workshop again, got dropped off at the wrong airport, spent the night at the coach's daughter's house, left again at six this morning, stayed at my friend's house, went to practice, and now here I am back in my room after six days of nonstop jump rope.

Loved every minute of it.

So now I'm severely time / date-confused and I have a shitload of work to finish before Friday. But I'm happy. Very tired, but very happy.

Wish me luck for this week...Muffy over and out

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I remember first telling myself when I embarked on this new life journey...the embarking is easy! It's keeping at it that's tough. Duh, I was right all along. I was dumb to think I could ever stay just as happy while I just stagnated and let life slip away. MISSION RESUMING, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.

Oh, and just so your visit to this entry won't be completely useless....behold!


I can't believe they did it all in one shot. Sheer ridiculousness. But not as sheerly ridiculous as this old ad which you may or may have not seen before...

606 TAKES. Truly ridiculous.

Muffy over and out

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Here's my conclusion about my life.

I'm tall, but I act like a little kid. I'm studying informatics, but I know nothing about computers. I love music, but you couldn't categorize my musical taste if you tried. I jump rope, but how many people know what that means? People jump rope all over the world, but nobody has a style quite like mine. I've decided my college major, but I only picked it because nothing else feels quite right. I'm in college to get success and money, but I don't care about either. I'm supposed to live at school, but I'm always gone. I love being social, but I also love being alone. I'm a guy, but I'm not "one of the guys." I'm accepting of everyone, but apparently that's weird to some people. I'm a spiritual person, but I don't believe in God. I don't believe in God, but that doesn't mean it/he/she/whatever doesn't exist. I love cantaloupe, but it makes me poop a lot.

I can talk and laugh and love, but I don't really belong anywhere.

And I'm not happy about it, but I'm not willing to compromise my uniqueness to fit in either. Yup, one-of-a-kind. Shaun Hamilton once told me:

"And you...you're just an anomaly."

It's stuck with me ever since. And also reminds me of Neo, the sixth anomaly in The Matrix So I think I'll stay that way, and when I find that community or that person with whom I feel I belong, it'll be that much more special. I just have to keep going and keep looking for it. And I'm tired...but if I give up I'm just going to slip back into the same rut I was in before. All of that sad music and day dreaming can feel good...but at the same time it's crippling. No good.

I'm sorry about these entries. They've been so back and forth and always so serious. But I'm at a strange point in my life and so I blog what feels right. Bear with me :)

Muffy over and out

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This is a beautiful thing, especially if you've played any of the Pokemon games. Nostalgia is my weakness ugh...

And almost equally awesome is THIS:
Scuba divers attack Google Maps

Follow the link in the article to witness this amazing development on Google Maps yourself.

As for the rest of life...going well! I've basically had to scrap my Rulebook of Life because I've integrated so many of those things into how I live everyday that there really isn't a need for it anymore. Maybe I'll go more specific. I'm definitely going to California over spring break! I've moved into my new room and I just had an hour long jam session with three CRAZY musicians last night! It makes my skills look NOOB...but also gives me something to strive for. I feel like my relationships with people are improving so much...it's crazy how opening up a little can go so far. And I'm taking risks that I always thought I would be too scared too. I don't know what the future looks like, but for once I'm excited for change and determined to overcome all the crap I was too worried to face before. Yes, there are still some things missing...but all in due time.

Muffy over and out

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Oh man. Great times these past few weekends:

• Canada with Roblobster. MUCH LAUGHS.
• Returned Sunday and then spent the next few days toiling away at math homework.
• Tuesday night there was a "gas leak" that turned out to be just a durian fruit that someone had thrown in the garbage. It WREAKED.
• Wednesday night I spent the night at Claus-Boss's house and left Thursday morning for Idaho on our quest to the US World Trials
• Myself, Roblobster, and Claus-boss judged the speed portion of Trials, along with our Californian friend KM. It was weird being the one clicking the jumper and not being the jumper! I felt like I should be warming up while they were setting up the tournament haha. We all looked so official in our white polos and blue slacks ;)
• The tournament itself though, was a total shit show. Team USA will be an embarrassment at Worlds this year. After all of the political crap that went down in Africa, none of the older jumpers are doing it this year. So that means young, inexperienced people try out and arbitrarily make it because all of the better people aren't there. The routines were HORRID. I could have gone onto the floor in my judging clothes and thrown together an improv routine that would've looked better. Man.
• I had another epiphany moment while I was sitting on the floor of the practice room. I looked up from my homework, with "Imagine" playing in my earbuds, and realized that I was in the best place in the world at that very moment. Surrounded by jump rope, music, friends, and happiness. It just made me smile.

And now I'm back to the real world. But for the first time in a long time, I feel OK about it! I know everything will happen if I keep my head up and keep opening up to people.

I'm doing the hall talent show next week! Possibly going to Long Beach to visit KM. Very possible trip back to Canada with Roblobster and Claus-boss. Trip to Texas first weekend of March. Possible trip to Michigan mid-March. NATIONALS. CAMP. JRope / gymnastics Camp. EUROPE TOUR. FRIENDS. MUSIC. LAUGHING. Oooh man. Stupid happy Muffy is back...

over and out.

Oh, and, here's my preliminary tattoo idea:

It's the best thing I could come up with that symbolically translates "one of a kind"...which is what I want it to represent. Because nobody else is quite like me :) The symbol in the middle is the Chinese formal letter for "one," and coincidentally it also means "togetherness." So "one world" is kind of an accidental, dual meaning. Anyways...

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I wish I could explain to you folks what I'm feeling tonight. It's amazing. And it's for a number of reasons.

I'll start with the little things. Working out every night...and pushing it. HARD. And my back problems seem to have disappeared over night. Always learning on the piano. Keeping up the schoolwork (led an awesome discussion on Monday, 4.0 on the math midterm). And my tattoo design is almost finished. I call these things the little things because they're about me. The big things are...bigger.

First of all, there have been so many random people that have jumped into my life again after we've lost touch. Some of them have just said nice things, and others have had long, long conversations with me about...stuff. Deep stuff. Meaningful stuff. And it's these people who have surprised me the most, because I never thought that it would be THEM. The party-goers, the wannabe G's...people are surprising me left and right, and I'm loving every bit of it.

And then, there's jump rope. I'm going to get extremely sentimental for this next bit, so brace yourself.

When I first started travelling for jump rope, there was so much love and so many new people. And SO MUCH excitement. We were all enthralled with the sport. We would reminisce about how many times we had all sat through something important thinking about a new routine, or a new trick, or the next time we'd all see each other. Lately, however, I feel like that excitement has died down. People have left for school. The workshops seem smaller, the campers less enthused. The STAFF less enthused. But tonight, I feel a change. TONIGHT, six of my jump roping friends made it onto Season five of America's Best Dance Crew and the jump rope world is ON FIRE. There is so much support and so much emotion...people are getting excited again. I wish I could explain what it feels like to see people from around the country showing so much pride in something that we all love. I got on Facebook after the show and that's all I could see....and it was so gratifying. And I felt excited all over again to be a part of the sport of jump rope.

It's a weird thing to explain to people. I've tried, and it hasn't work. I think it's just one of those things that you just have to experience yourself, because it's beyond words. I was talking with some friends today and on Skype, and one of them stopped and said "guys, do you realize how lucky we are?" And it is amazing. I haven't seen her in YEARS, and out of nowhere we have a 3 hour conversation about life, love, how we fit into this world and how we should live it. And maybe I'm in one of those super-sentimental moments and I'm taking this waaay too hard, but...I can't help but feel a little bit mystified by the undeniable perfection of this thing that I'm a part of.

And of course it makes me happy to know that my friends are on national television! Haha it's weird seeing them interviewed and perform because they're just so...themselves. But ABDC that's just the thing that galvanized all of this. In reality, what's going on is a lot bigger, and I hope that this ball doesn't stop rolling for a long time. I'm excited all over again, and I have the goosebumps to prove it :)

Now that I've stayed up till 1am chatting with people from around the country, I must return to work on...DUN DUN DUN: math. But I leave you with this message, Nutang: I no longer believe that the recent events and people in my life are just the byproduct of randomness and chance. Coincidence only goes so far, and I think I just crossed that line.

Muffy over and out.

OH...and if you missed out, here they are:
Saltare - Latin for "jump." They're the last crew on the list, and please vote!

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