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Books I have completed reading since January 2021:

1. The Enchanted - Rene Denfield
Hummingbird renga
Wednesday. 8.5.09 10:20 am
damaged nest -
the hummingbirds flew off
to collect new materials

Jolenesiah has been reporting to me about the hummingbird nest incident via MSN messenger. I felt it was cruel for the office ladies to sweep off the nest as if it was a cobweb. And I began to think if a pair of hummibngbirds built a nest in my balcony. I believe my mother would have done the same thing too because she will have no where else to hang my clothes.

below
the nest
a broom and an akimbo

My sister and I would think it would be nice to accomodate the pair of bird to have their home here but surely my mother would be screaming her head off because of their poo on my balcony. My sister will probably remove the nest because of hygiene reasons.

H1N1 -
all bird pets
have to go

I will be sad to see the birds losing their home but I have no choice but to follow the decision of majority.

departing chants
of happiness and safety
the birds missed it

Or maybe I would just try to support the nest weight with a halve plastic bottle and sling it around the balcony bars.

evening
the birds return
to find a new home

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I want nobody nobody but Renaye
Saturday, August 29, 2009
I had a crazy week and next week is even crazier. I forgot to have lunch and buy bus ticket for next month. And my boss is not answering my emails.

I spent my whole day today visiting a friend to giver her religion support. And she took me to eat food in her housing area, Pudu, which is famous for good food. I managed to try the fried chicken which has been featured in 3 local food programmes. The chicken tasted good, better than KFC, and even better because it's cheap and comes with bigger size.

I also managed to dwell in a distant memory: paper lanterns. In this modern era, kids either don't play lanterns or known as tang lung in Cantonese or their tang lung comes with battery. No more the tang lung that makes of colourful plastic and using candle to light it. Yes, my tanglung always got burnt. No more of those days....


colourful tanglungs
above the owner -
look so lonely

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Moon haiku
Monday. 5.27.13 11:58 am
Out of the blue, I wanna pen down this haiku:

14 December
the moon light
caught between my fingers ...

I have a song that is stuck in my chest and I could not really decipher it... or rather a lyric...

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December 14
Saturday. 12.14.13 10:14 am
Hmm... Let's do a haibun based on one of my memories regarding today starting with ...

2011...

It was one of the coldest nights I have had endured in my whole life. I thought the wet winter in New Zealand is already extremely cold but here... on the ship is deadlier with the ship moving at full force. I tried wrapping my knees with my arms but I was so cold that I should have just brought along my beanie but I decided not to because I wanna spend more time with a friend.

beanie
I wanna take you
but I chose him instead

We sat on a bench and ... I had so many things to share from my heart but the wind was not interested to listen nor carry the message. I looked at my friend from behind and knew whatever my heart has to say would never left the heart...

full moon
the only listener
of my racing heartbeat

So we looked up the sky and enjoy the full moon peeking on us from behind a huge black cloud. I leaned on the wall and continued to look at his back and had the urge to bundle him because he looks so lonely... and small. His back reminded me a lot of a lyric I wrote some time ago. It totally described the whole situation we were in ...

full moon
in the mist
- rubbing shoulder to shoulder

My heart continued to race because I wanna pick up our conversation where we had left before our good ol' friend joined us with his instant noodle cup. I wanna hear what you have to say!

love at first sight
you say
i blushed

I looked at the moon again and asked myself if I wanna leave my confession as it is... Will I regret later?

Full moon
do you ever
regret rising?

Suddenly the skies were filled with shooting stars! Like every girl, I tried making a wish and... what a failure... I could not finish my sentence with three passing shooting stars... no wonder there are always millions so you can finish your sentence!

Shooting star!
May you rain forever!
so my wish never runs dry!

Shooting star!
Don't run!
Don't let this moment fly away!

If only we could sit side by side very much longer! But the cold was just too unkind to us... so we decided to seek warmth...

Warm, cold, only love has such extreme temperatures...

This memory was still so clear even though a year has passed ...

and in 2012 ...

I wrote him a haiku to commemorate that day and I don't remember what I have written. I have actually been keeping that haiku in my head since April. It's amazing how easily I have forgotten it now.

April to December
waiting
for 14 December

And as usual, my messages went unanswered. I wonder deeply what he thinks of a girl that writes poetry for him. Or rather am I being plain stupid for putting so much effort in keeping in touch with a friend who makes less effort?

Full moon
still behind the clouds
laughing at my innocence?

But December was also an important month for me because I asked myself how long do I want keep moving on like a zombie... Why bother a guy who stays silent on this matter for almost a year? Or is it my email is not succinctly enough about this matter? Or is he just laughing at me and our friendship?

full moon
my only witness
to my tears ...

Anyways forwarding to 2013...

My heart started to wane because I really have to move on. Moreover, my tiredness has been increasing over the past year. My health is too fragile to handle this heartbreak. And so I distracted myself with work ...

Full moon
replaced by sun rays
- new goals

My feelings for him started to ease and then I have totally forgotten about him until one day... the intense feelings I used to have for him came back to haunt me. I thought I have finally released him from my heart but it didn't. It was just half past six. The feelings were still wrapping around my heart like a vine but a forgotten one... It was a ticking bomb actually.

yesterday memories
came back
without invitation

The feelings drove me insane... and I did the impossible: burning the ties between me and him. I never thought I would come down to this stage whence I have considered doing this seriously in 2012 because I could feel him all the time despite being separated geographically. You found me because of the bridge you have established with me aeons, but this is also the very bridge I must burn to stay sane. I chose sanity over you.

sanity or love?
the world
of insanity ...

I met your guardian angel or your old soul who lent a helping hand. He forewarned if I were to burn the bridge you won't be able to find me again in the future. I could feel the fear surging in him as we speak... and so we made an agreement that I will only burn the bridges not the mouth. Why did I even seek help from your guardian? It is because I could not burn your bridge to mine. I have dissolved the bridge from my end to yours but yours to mine kept coming back after imaging pouring acid onto your bridge. It won't go away!

Burning bridge
You walked
And survived...

With your guardian's help, I was able to dissolve it for good and he has given me a message and the reason of your existence in my life. I also told him that our connection is strong enough for him to locate me without having the bridge. He has to trust himself... The guardian smiled and disappeared...

Connected
Between you and me
A bridge made aeons ago...

I told myself that no matter I will always love him and whatever I have gone through because of him happened for a reason. For that, I thank you even though it was not a reciprocal love. I will move on...

Love
Saved for
The past

For now, I will still remember the events behind 14 December, perhaps not for long... I will open my heart to love someone else too other than you...

Full moon, full moon
Come out
And play with me!

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