Not only have most of my entries so far sucked, but I haven't updated at all lately. I promise that I'll make a real update later on the going-on's of the past ten days. Most of the entry will probably be about how KICK ASS Warped Tour was. As for now, I should probably get some sleep. But I will update this soon. Not that anyone reads it... Cassie <3

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I went to Snowballs today with Rachel and we met Cullen and Joel up there. It was fun. I made Rachel fall off her bike. It was the funniest thing I've ever seen.

Other than that, today's been pretty boring. I'm waiting for Patti and my mom to get back from some interview thing for a school. I'm going to make Patti take me somewhere, haha.

I'll update later.

Cassie <3

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Tyler called me today. We talked for like an hour. I kinda lied in my last entry... I really did wanna talk to him. Haha. But things are ok with us again. I'm glad. He's the hardest person in the world to be mad at. He's just so... Tyler. But he still pisses me off sometimes.

*sigh* I might be able to see him tonight. I really, really, really hope so. I haven't seen him in nine days. And until today, I hadn't talked to him in four.

I found out that Cullen still likes me. He's the sweetest guy around but... I dunno. Maybe there's a chance of us going back out someday? I dunno. As for right now... I'm still waiting for Tyler to grow some balls and ask me out. I like him a lot. <3 It's great but it sucks at the same time. Don't you hate that?

I went to Rachel's today to watch The Butterfly Effect. It was awesome. Is it just me or is the guy that plays Evan as a teenager incredibly gorgeous? Well anyway... I think I'm gonna go now.

Cassie <3

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God, today was boring. My dad left tonight for Las Vegas. He'll be there until next Thursday. So I'll have one less person on my back bitching at me. That's always good.

I didn't go to sleep until like 6:00 this morning. Ron called me at like 11:00 something and woke me up. Damn him. I pretty much did nothing until 3:30. Patti took me to the pool with her. Rachel came up later. Exciting day, eh?

She just got off work. She brought Ashley and Anthony over. I really hope that she'll take me with her if they go somewhere. I'm really bored.

Still haven't heard from Tyler yet. I'm not even sure if I want to.

I'll update later I guess.

Cassie

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I have mastered the art of owning a million+ journals on the internet. I might not even use this one. I'm not sure yet. Maybe I'll just use this one to write things in that I probably wouldn't write in my other journal. I don't really want a private journal, but I just want a journal that no one that I know in real life knows about. Except for Rachel.

Well... it's Monday and already this week sucks. I didn't really do too much today. I woke up at like 11:30 and didn't feel like getting up, so I stayed awake in bed until about 12:00. My sister, Patti, was about to leave to her weekly meeting at the pool at 12:30 and after that she was going to drop some clothes off at the thrift store and I wanted to go so I finally got out of bed. She picked me up after her meeting and we went all the way to Denbeigh just to drop some clothes off. I thought we were going to stay to look around, but I guess not. I wanted to see if they had some cool old stuff. I love old stuff. <3 After that we went to go pick Anthony up on his lunch break. He didn't exactly eat though. ;) We smoked a couple of bowls and then he had to be back to work by 2:15. After we dropped him back off, we went to my sister's best friend Ashley's house. We were only there for like, 30 minutes. I had cotton mouth like a bitch so I had a Coke. And I had the munchies too. I usually never get the munchies that bad when I'm high. It was crazy. Ashley was like, "What kind of chips do you want?" I was like, "Both." Haha, I was verrrryy hungry. I tried to sneak off with a... God I don't even know what it was. It was some kind of Little Debbie cake or something. But they caught me, haha.

I had to go home and do my chores. Right when I got there, my mom was about to leave for an interview to get into some nursing school. I had the whole house to myself, so of course that means that I was blasting some music. It was fun. I probably could have finished my chores in like 20 minutes, but instead it took like an hour because I am the best procrastinator you'll ever meet. :D

I finally finished, and I was bored with nothing else to do so I went up to the pool around 6:00. Patti, Bryan, Nick, and Angela were working and there were literally three people in the pool. They could have been closed, but no. Those three people just wouldn't leave, haha. Oh well. I was there until 8:00 or so just hanging out and talking and stuff.

God damn, it's only two days into the week and I can already tell that the rest of the week is going to suck. Just like last week. I have been so bummed out lately. And I still want to kick Tyler in the balls… uh oh. I guess this needs explaining. I might as well write a damn novel in my journal… But anyway, I guess I have to start from last Monday for this entry to make sense. Here we go…

So last Monday Patti dropped me off at Tyler's around 1:30 and his friend Tom was there. Tyler lives in this really nice neighborhood where they gave a private beach for the people that live there and what not. It's cool. So we went to the beach and met some hippie there. He was cool, haha. Yeah, so we were there for maybe like and hour or an hour and a half. Then we walked to Tyler's friends' house and mostly stayed there for the rest of the day. They were pretty cool. Later on, Shane (Tyler's nephew who is actually two years older then Tyler) came over. He was drunk so he was being kind of… dumb. We all know how that goes but whatever. Anyway, yeah. So Shane was really pissing me off that day. Tom went home probably around like 5:00. Later we went to Pockets, which is this place where you play pool and stuff, and I have no clue how it was so busy on a Monday night so we didn't stay. But when we were in the parking lot I asked Tyler to show me where the bathroom was so we were about to talk in there and there was this guy that was wearing one of those white muscle shirts with the hair and all that stuff. He seemed like he was really into himself. But I was about to walk in and he looked at me and he was like "pssst" and I was thinking "Holy shit, walk faster walk faster" haha. It was scary. We were walking back to the car and there he was again doing the same thing to me and I was kind of freaked out. So I just walked away. I'm kinda glad Tyler didn't see him doing all that stuff because he would have screamed at the guy and made a big scene. And then… I forgot what happened next. Oh yeah! Um, we went back to his house and I played with his kitten while he played a video game. Then this psycho bitch Lisa came over and ruined everything. There's a lot more to that story but I really don't feel like explaining it.

So the next day he called me from work and stuff and then… I don't know what I did for the rest of the day. Oh, yeah. Beth came over and then we went to her house. Yeah. So when I got home from Beth's house I called Tyler, but he wasn't there. Lisa answered though, and we talked for about 40 minutes about Tyler and I found out quite a few things that made me really upset.

Wednesday I went to Busch Gardens with Jon, Rachel, Nate, Patty (not my sister), and Ryan. We had ourselves' come fun on the sky ride ( Haha, Rachel. ;] ). Anyway, we were literally right about to go on a roller coaster (Apollo's Chariot) and Jon passed out. It scared the hell out of me. He just started staggering and then he hit his head on the rail, then fell to the ground. You could hear his head hit the ground, it was so loud. And then he opened his eyes and was like "Dude, what the hell is going on?" and shit like that. But it was freaking weird. He passed out because he was dehydrated. But the people that worked on the ride were like "Are you ok? Do you need to see First Aid?" and stuff like that and he was like "Nah, I'm fine. I'm fine." But they made him see First Aid. So the people drove all of us to the First Aid house place and we were there for probably 30 minutes. Then he felt well enough to go on rides an stuff again so we did. But all day I was really bummed out because of what Lisa and I had talked about the night before. I didn't know how much of it was true and it was eating away at me all day so I used Patty's cell phone to call him. Lisa answered and tried to give the phone to Tyler but he wouldn't take it. And she was like "He isn't even talking to me either." And I was like "Well, put the phone up to his ears and make him talk" and she did, so I was like "Grow some balls and talk to me you pussy, blah blah blah!!!" But he still didn't talk. So I told Lisa to tell him that I was going to call him when I got home. So the whole night was fucked up because he was being evil. And Jon was mad because I was bummed out. He was like, "You know what you need to do? You need to kick him in the balls." I was like, "I think I should too" lol.

So I got home and I called him, and Shane answered. Tyler wasn't there when I called so I talked to Shane for maybe like 10-15 minutes about Tyler and about everything that happened Monday and about his girlfriend and stuff. He was like "Well, I know for a fact that he really likes you because he told me and he never shuts up about you. But it's the fact that Lisa won't leave him alone. He keeps telling her 'I don't wanna go out with you, leave me the fuck alone' but she won't. But I told him from the beginning that he needs to go with you." And I was like, "Why are you gonna help me out when I was a bitch to you on Monday?" He said, "To be honest, I don't remember much about that night… but all I know is that you're a nice girl and you seem genuine and that's hard enough to find these days, so he needs to go with you." I was like…wow. Haha, he is so much cooler when he's sober, lol. I told him why I was upset and he was like, "I totally understand but you gotta know that he really does like you though." I was like… hmm, I can tell. But anyway Tyler walked in, and Shane made him talk to me. And well… we kind of talked. I pretty much asked him questions and he answered them "yes" or "no".

The next day he called twice when he was at work and was like "Cassie, I'm so sorry. You know that I really like you, blah blah." And I really didn't feel like talking to him so I was like "Uhhh, I gotta go. Bye."

Not much else happened the next couple of days. But Saturday my sister, her best friend Ashley, Rachel and I went to see Napoleon Dynamite. That movie was seriously about nothing. It had no story or anything. I mean it was funny, but other than that it was just dumb. After we saw that I had to get my hair trimmed and such so I did that. And then later on at my Grandparents' house there was a cookout thing with 213861287634871 people there. It sucked. I was allowed to invite three people, but Nate and Ryan couldn't come because it was raining and they were going to ride their bikes. Rachel still came though. I was so stressed out because for one thing my whole family was there which sucks enough as it is. And secondly, Tyler called and I tried to find a room with no one in it so I could talk to him but it was impossible. Gahhhh. He put me on hold for like two minutes, then we talked for like one minute, then my Gramma was like "Cassie, get off the phone I have to call the people next door even though they live like 30 feet away and I can't just walk over there myself and get them." Well, obviously she didn't really say that but that's pretty much how it went. So I didn't get to talk to him for the rest of the night.

I haven't talked to him much since then. And I don't think I really want to. If he wants to talk to me, he'll call me. And if he does call me, it better be to apologize. I don't think you understand how much it sucks to start to like someone, have them tell you that they like you too, start to trust them, then find out that they're already in a relationship. And to find out that the whole time they were lying to you constantly. It sucks pretty hard. And the saddest part is, I still like him. I don't want to like him, but for some reason I do.

Holy shit, this is the longest entry I've ever written. Maybe I will keep this journal… Ok, I'm going to end this entry now.

Cassie <3

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