I turned 25 in October.




With some help after I left my college city, I have a job that has me up and down the east coast.




I'm on a train bound for Boston tonight. Silly enough, I used to day dream I'd look like a feature on GQ if I had a job like this. But I've settled into a thick, water proof coat, baseball cap, and sturdy duffel bag for travel. I actually think traveling light means I forget less when packing.




I don't think I ever imagined being where I am today. I'm currently establishing a network to work at a vineyard so I can eventually go back to school for viticulture. Very late into college, I found a sort of passion with science in wine production. It really gets me talking.




Only


It's just quieter than I had expected.


Friends scattered to the wind, old friends lost in part due to my own mistakes I think up apologies for.


"Sorry I sucked as a friend from dd/mm/yy to the last time we talked. Things got rough and I turned inward rather than toward my support, my friends" is a common one. Sorry doesn't say you miss someone though. Nor does it excuse under appreciation.




And I chose a longer path I guess. It hit home at the weddings I've attended in the past months. It strikes me as simply wanting to feel like I belong someplace. And maybe it's a fool's errand since it's more a state of mind. But I know I've felt it before; it's an absolute content with the universe.




What I want to say outright is that I'm saddling up for the long haul. And my mind's often thinking about from where I've come and what I can only describe as a phantom limb.

It's nice to see you here again, and I'm glad to hear you're doing interesting things and following passions.

I hope you find where you belong.
» randomjunk on 2016-03-08 02:02:57

Young college adulthood was a doozy for me.

I'm slowly reclaiming my old haunts and it's good to be around again.
» yourcupoftea on 2016-03-08 04:00:36

Profound
and well written!:) Hope things work out for you.
» Ravennah on 2016-03-11 01:38:39

all the best!
» renaye on 2016-04-04 01:39:41

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