as i blogged, im breakin down inside. not in de best of moods recently. argh. tho some of my entries concluded tt im happie. i guess i jus find it hard to feel contented. hah.

Saturday
wen out wif my parents to view hse - at kovan. its de new condo advertised on tv and mag. a pretty nice place i must sae. n its super convenient. show room wasnt tt bad. nice layout. nice ambience. de place's reali big. my current location has accomodated 500+ untis..de one tt i saw..its 700+ units..reali a lot man. imgaine how many neighbours u will hav. father was kinda keen, but mum wasnt. cos of de fact tt de hse will only be rdy by de end of 2006. its risky, i felt. wad if we cant sell our current hse to recoup de cost of de new hse? wad if there's no potential buyer at all? or wad if there's a buyer hu wans to stay immediately? my family might have to rent a house for de 2 yrs? hmm, its worrying, so i tink its not a gd idea too. save up de $ for other purpose. im ok living at my current place. i saw some reali young couples too. they seemed as if they're jus 19 or 20 yrs old! hah, im full of envy again.

here r some pics of de place :











after tt, we headed to chinatown. mum suggested goin there n i was ok wif it. but de scorching sun sorta spoil my mood. omg, its reali hot. shopped at OG shopping centre since it was air-conditioned! haha. ooh, their bikinis r on sale! good buy! bought some tops too. *grin* sat down at some nearby coffee shop after tt.. we din had lunch so mum bought some oyster thingy..argh, i dun eat tt. i had my teh-ping. haha gd enuf. there was a long queue for some yong tau fu stall..its reali long.. shld b quite famous i guess.. pple queue there for close to an hr. i wonder how special it is man.

took a train down to dhoby ghaut after tt. heh i bought my GG<5 top finally! de one ive been finding. lol. *ok enuf of shoppin* haha. we had dinner at "Lao Beijing". not tt my family is rich, always go restaurant, but cos my mum had some voucher..given by the NKF thingy. food's not bad. shall not post too many food pics here! haha.

wen home after tt to rest b4 meeting Ro n Joyce. took a pic of myself b4 leaving home..haha, damn zhi lian kuang. its ugly. i was jus being bo liao.





hmm we decided to head to Devils Bar. hah but ltr change of plans. they had dinner-cum-supper at cafe cartel. i ordered my mocha. hehe. stayed there for quite sometime as de food came late. den we decided to go New Asia Bar instead. heh its their first time there, i hope they like de place! its cool rite? de songs n view's not bad. hmm i got home feelin real tired. body aches. n my foot hurts. argh. kinda broke too. grrr.

zzz..i wish i had a sis hu enjoys clubbing, drinkin n stuff lidat. hai. i dun tink its a bad thing actually. hah. too bad my sis doesnt, so i appear to b like de "huai dan" in de family. coming home late at nite. drinking. clubbin. i hav frenz hu go wif their sis, party til 4 +, 5.. and its all bout fun n enjoyment lor! sigh. everytime i hang out wif de PIGS to club, i dun feel extremely happie. cos a certain part of me feels de fear. n de worries. hah doubt any1 noes wad i mean..

de smile tt u c on my face may not be de real smile i feel inside..deep down, im not fully happie at all. different pple has different ways of enjoying n making themselves happie rite? everyone is different, so y cant ppl accept me jus de way i am? and accept de things i like? obviously, no one is purrfect rite?! hu doesnt wan to live life happily? hu doesnt wan ppl to like dem for hu they r? dun we all hav different views n opinions? #!#@$$#@#@ *arghhh*

tml will b de last dae of de ghost festival..den comes de lantern festival. sigh. i wen wif him to Chinese Garden last yr, wif my bro n his gf.. it was a wonderful nite. tis yr shall be a quiet one.. dun tink i wan to buy tix for de entrance.. no point.. hope he enjoys tis yr's lantern festival. ive been tryin hard to forget u. but u r stil on my mind. til tis date.

lovely pics :)
U look great there jac! Ur smile is better than any frown...don't worry too much girl. You do whateva you wanna do and what makes u happi. Tat is most important, not wat every1 else sez. Like ur 'msg to everyone', life is short, enjoy it while u can. With those things bothering u... don't let them get to u...too many beautiful things to embrace to feel sad. yeh? :) take care
» murasaki*dream on 2004-09-12 09:26:51

gee thanx..i tink i took many pics of myself tt pple r bored of seeing already. lol.
» xinyi0121 on 2004-09-12 10:57:41

Clubbing
Hello, I didn't know you felt this way...if you want, I can always accompany you. :) - sis
» xinyi0121 on 2004-09-13 06:24:21

awww...tat is so nice..!!! :) I wish I had a sister now... to do stuff together...awww..
» murasaki*dream on 2004-09-14 07:25:00

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