Sunday. 5.9.04 12:42 pm
ok..some thing crop up, saying that i din log in, so i have to retype my entry! omg, tis is so....argh!!! *angry* Today is Mother's Day and so is my anniversary wif my dearie! woohoo! hee, stil rem last yr couldnt celebrate cos he wen for an operation. gee.*
hmm, woke up kinda earli today..like at 6.30am? actually its my normal routine, accompanying my parents to de market, but was feeling kinda lazy today. hee. its also a gd opportunity to have some tok wif dem. my grandma came along today (she visits us once in awhile) and she chatted wif me. i jus found out that my granaunt is actually suffering from some kidney failure..have to go for dialysis..sob sob..hope she gets well soon.*
Oh ya, and i jus heard from my dearie tt de st margaret's principal has died! i tout it was jus a minor stroke. omg, tis is too sudden! *bless her*
Sigh, tho todays Mother's Day, didnt reali had a celebration cos brother's gf was coming over and he said he din wanna come along wif us. Fater was like telling me: "Now ur got gf and bf, den treat ur family as second.." Ha, kinda sad to hear tt. I tout i had already compromise by celebrating early (today was de actual date) cos i knew today was Mother's Day, but well, since eveyone's mood became so bad...den forget it..no celebration.
Sometimes, it jus doesnt pay off to have gd intentions..gave my mom a coin pouch and a tissue cover tt has a kimono design, so tt it matches togeda! hope she likes it! jus wanna thank her for everythig tt she has been doing, directly n indirectly..i'm so xing fu..hee. Happy Mother's Day! Spend my whole afternoon slacking around..reading my driving stuffs..looking at my brother play his fav gunbound game (hahahahah) and guess wad? i fall in love reading a comic -- One Piece-- go check it out man! de stiryline is kinda funny and nice. hee, addicted liao. Took an afternoon nap...i'm a pig...lolx...supposed to wake up to go to the gym, but was too lazy! hee, go tml k? i nid to train man. hehe.
wen i woke up, it was like 5pm? had a date wif terenz..since it was a special day for both of us, i decided to go to his workplace. he had work till 7.30pm..i was there quite earli, and he wass a little late. hee, tts so typical of him! so happy to c him ya? we exchanged cards and laugh at each other's writing! *lol* tts betwen us i suppose..hmm, took a bus down to Parkway's Fish & Co Restaurant-- one of my fav! It was crowded, but we din wait for tt long. Ordered a sambal Whol Line Fish and coleslaw...we shared it cos dearie promised his mum to go back and have some dishes. his mum is cookin wine chicken! omg, must be delicious! i've tried her food b4, and its not bad! de fish was delicious! yum yum!
i love fishes! hee..
dearie had a craving for ice-cream and suggested to go to Swensens, but no-no, not at tis ppoint of time! cant spend so much on food! next month den we eat! ~good food r always worth waiting~ So, i was looking for cheaper ones like Anderson's, and there's one more, dunno Spring sth..(not too sure). ask him wad he wan and he jus sae anything anything la..and it piss me off! omg!
i hate it! u noe all de planning always i do? and ask u jus one simple question always must gimme headache. it may seem weird, but i was reali piss. and wen i'm piss, i wun tok to anyone. ~that's me~ was waiting for him to do sth to cheer me up, but NO, he din. sadly, we jus headed home. de bus ride was exceptionally long today. sat at de last row on de bus, lied on de windows instead of his shoulders. i was like jus in my own world. couldnt reali bothered. all i was tinkin is:" Its meant to be a happy day, y did it turn out to be lidat!" i was fuming mad. not only did he not show any appreciation of me going down to his workplace, he din even bothered to cheer me up! isn't tt wad a bf shld do? *arghhh* @#$##$^@#$^
had a long way home...tho he send me home..we werent holding hands, i jus din feel like doing tt! i was like jus in my own world...if i were to rate today's mood, i can sae tt i m very SAD today! of everything!
Outside my hse, he prevented me from going home, he wanted to clarify matters. He even said I've changed..oh man, wad the f***! he said i wouldnt tok back at him last time! i mean, if u r sad or angry, of cus u'll wan to sae wad u feel rite? grrr! i was like so damn piss tt i said:" Fine, u tink i've changed so, so be it. we walked separate ways!"--ya tt was wad i said--*
i tout, after so many yrs, u stil dunno wad i m like, and wad i wan from u, den fine, i dun tink u suit being my bf! so y continue this relationship rite? it was so irritating, i was like loss for words! does ppl tk me for granted? i reali wonder..
Tho angry, soon after, tears rolled down my cheeks. my eyes was so red, i din felt like going home. but at de same time,i din felt like seeing him.
we tried to tok things out, but i guess i was jus too piss tt i dun feel like hearing anythg. i tout of how we met, how we got togeda, de memories tt we had in each other's life..tho not perfect, he was already part of my life. i was hesistant. let God determine our fate..we failed at breaking up, tho we were stil kinda cold towards each other. *bless us* called him jus now, but sigh, de mood wasnt there to tok, i was doing my blogging and he was watching tv..so well, hang up de fone.
goodnite pple, i cant get to slp now..partly bcos i slept during the noon..sigh, gonna have my itp tml, pray hard it works well for everyone.. *sweetie dreams*
Helo dear, this is ur dar dar
Sorry to make u so angry today. I m very sad today too... but never mind, because tomorrow will be a better day. :P SORRY!!!!!! Anyway tommorow working le... excited... dun worry everything will be fine. Any problem call mi wor... Miss ya.
» Terenz on 2004-05-09 01:51:19
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