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The Invitation- Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments. What you need to know
Name: Meggyo Status: in a relationship Occupation: student at Slippery Rock Unviersity Majors: exercise science and enlgish lit Location: Hershey PA for now Who I am: a ridiculous short girl who is trying to live the most now while looking so eagerly foward to the rest of her life Where I wish I was: in his arms Current question: should I stop wishing for things to go back to how they used to be? Song of the day: ps. if this is austin by Brad Paisley The Dance- OMD
I have sent you my invitation, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of living. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up quietly and dance with me. Show me how you follow your deepest desires, spiraling down into the ache within the ache, and I will show you how I reach inward and open outward to feel the kiss of the Mystery, sweet lips on my own, every day. Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from making another wrong without abandoning yourself when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved. Tell me a story of who you are, and see who I am in the stories I live. And together we will remember that each of us always has a choice. Don’t tell me how wonderful things will be . . . some day. Show me you can risk being completely at peace, truly okay with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next. . . I have heard enough warrior stories of heroic daring. Tell me how you crumble when you hit the wall, the place you cannot go beyond by the strength of your own will. What carries you to the other side of that wall, to the fragile beauty of your own humanness? And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy boundaries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remembering that we never stop silently loving those we once loved out loud. Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again. Show me how you take care of business without letting business determine who you are. When the children are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money. Show me how you offer to your people and the world the stories and the songs you want our children’s children to remember. And I will show you how I struggle not to change the world, but to love it. Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude, knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable belonging. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, holding neither against me at the end of the day. And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breathing us all into being, not filling the emptiness from the outside or from within. Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me. | Two and a half years Saturday. 7.7.07 2:03 pm Dun dun dun... the past two and a half years seem like an eternity and at the same time seem like less than one. What really amazes me is the amount of change and growth for the both of us that has occured within the past two and a half years, the multiple obstacles, flaws, screw ups, mistakes, challenges... two and a half years of them and here we are finally, in a place that I believe we both are content with, perhaps even the happiest we have ever been. I can easily see how most couples break up before they reach such a longevity. I wouldn't even say that we are the same people, or that we even have the same relationship we had a year ago, let alone two and a half. But we made it, and because we did not come to each other this way to begin with, I think that makes us stronger, because instead of showing up complementary to each other as we are today, we had to work at it, understand each other deeper, and fight for us. In that way, I hope that we prove to be able to beat anything. Funny that an anniversary would land on such a gold mine of a date. I hear that tons of people are choosing 7707 for their lottery ticket numbers. I wonder why 7 was designated a lucky number, and not three or six. There's so many open doors for our future now as well. Optimally, Keith would get a job offer teaching near home this coming year, he would emergency teach meaning they would let him teach but he'd have to complete his exams and stuff before the end of the year, and then they would be like, yea sure, go to Spain to earn your masters... here's some money while you're at it. Then we'd go to Spain for a year, I'd do houskeeping about 30 hours a week and tutoring English for 15 hours a week, while Keith earned his masters and taught english to kiddies. Then we'd come back to the US, I'd go to grad school, Keith would go back to teaching, and bam... done. Other options include, just going to Spain next year after substitute teaching and after I graduate. Coming back, finding a teaching job and maybe me a job and/or grad school depending upon the location of his job. Or, he gets a job offer this year, I graduate, we stay in Maryland and I go to grad school while he teaches, and go to Spain for a honeymoon instead. About grad school, I really am unsettled about what I want to go for, which is why Spain presented such an awesome opportunity because it would give me time to do "other stuff" learn more about myself and hopefully find a passion. However, as of this moment, I am content with this program I found at UMBC funny enough. I'd looked at it before but never agreed that it would be a great combo, although I am not sure as to the ultimate job at the end, but it would leave a lot of options open. It is called Human Services Psychology. It combines, clinical psych, behavioral medicine, and social-community psychology. Perfect really. It would take about 6 or 7 years to complete the PhD, one year is out in the field, and two years I think are doing research along with a few classes. Chances are good Keith could find a job in Maryland, so maybe... just maybe we could move in together at some point. Plus it'd put off my parents thinking about moving for 8 more years, until I'm really settled, it's close to both homes, there are tons of opportunities in and around Baltimore including John Hopkins and the Krieder Institute, and even though I do not like the humidity of Maryland, I would like to finally be close geographically to Keith. So yes. two and a half years marks quite a remarkable journey so far. 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