mood: narky

Why are ppl so afraid of showing their real selves to the closest ppl they love. When they are the ppl that you place your deepest love and trust in. I find that I cannot talk to my family about certain topics and even keep quiet about it within conversations with my best friends and my boyfriend. They often get frustrated at me cuz they have no idea what I am thinking...but they get the vibe of how I am feeling. It's funny cuz I can tell random ppl how I feel, like over the net...those friends who are on the other side of the world...even to common folk who I do not associate as much. I feel that by getting a external perspective of myself from others least closest to me, they will not place me in a mould.

You can often find comfort in strangers, who give you a glimpse of their life and of their thoughts, and they teach you something you dont know as yet. I love my family, bf and friends but sometimes it is good to be alone from ppl who 'know you'. In actual fact I dont want anyone to 'know me'...I want to keep a lil of myself to me... :)

At work, the guys are gossiping about me and interested to know me. I get teased everytime I go to work! But I get peeved off by the fact that they would not want to know me 5 yrs ago, when I was in highschool. Image is such a BIG thing now a days. Even though I look after my appearance it does not ultimately rule my life. And it is not the most important reason to get to know a person. It just gets on my nerves when girls' only aim in life is to be stick thin, be on the cover of a magazine and marry a rich husband to take her on shopping sprees. Hmm...and I am referring to someone in particular...but i wont say hehe...

To answer the question that was the first sentance.. I think people are scared to show who they really are to their loved ones because they fear that they won't be accepted 'ya know? So they keep things hidden. I guess I'm like you, 'cause I find it easy to talk to people who I know from the opposite side on the globe.. if they judge me, who cares? They're far away.
» Dilated on 2005-08-22 07:26:39

I agree with Jon, I mean Dilated. Its easier to be open with people who have no means of judging you. They don't know you, they don't know the people you know, you can say whatever you want, and it won't affect them really.
» juiCyy on 2005-08-22 02:11:47

Thanks guys!
Thanks for your comments guys, I dont feel alone in this world now. I guess that is one of the reasons we blog, is so that we can express our ideas to others an hear their unbias view of our thoughts. They wont judge us...
» von-nation on 2005-08-22 09:14:48

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