�I�m scared to see you.� she texts me late night.


You always are. I�m not going to bite you.. Again.


):


Don�t be skurred.


That�s impossible though.


How?


Our relationship is going to fuck one of us up at any given time I�ve
decided.


One of us? Don�t you mean me?


Right now I�m referring to myself


What are you worried about?



Caring about you ever again.


You can�t control that


I�m so stupid. Haha. When will I learn? Meh


I know what you mean. It kind of feels like I�m walking alongside a railroad track with this relationship. I hear the train rumbling, I know the damage it�ll do, and yet I have no intention of moving.


Perfect analogy.



Ever since we were ten, her and I have waltzed through this square dance, always a bit offbeat and never in tune with the rest of the world. To claim that simplicity accompanied our youth would be fabrication. Nothing has ever been simple with us.

I�m not looking forward to taking this campaign job. Truth be told, I�m already sort of missing Harvard, Cambridge, Boston, and my classmates. I�m also missing my family something awful right now as I write this in a St. Lous Airport.

But, hey, Whatever. I signed upf or this shit, you know? I wanted to leave school � just for a semester, to try and figure out what the fuck I ought to do when I graduate. The plan right now is to do this gig for the next four months, move down to the Texas-Mexico border city of Laredo and do some legal aid work for a human rights organization down there. From what I gather, they mostlywork with migrant farm workers, trafficking survivors, and immigration issues. After that, head back up to Cambridge for the Spring semester, and figure out shit to do next summer..

I reckon I�ll either try my hand at NYC life � get back into working for civil rights and human organizations. Either that or try Florida�s gulfcoast and do what I did this summer in Hawaii and Dallas � domestic violence and child abuse prosecution.
But for now.. I�m going to start a gig that I�m very reluctant about taking in a state I absolutely loathe. One of the two biggest impediments for me to ever truly committing to giving this thing with Caitlin a legit shot is the fact that she�s grounded in Virginia. Her son, the reason that she is grounded to that state, is the other reason.

I just can�t stand that place. Any state that seemingly deifies that ethnic cleansing child rapist Thomas Jefferson is booboo to me.

Booboo.

Sometimes, the right person is at the same time the wrongest person to be with. Only time will tell if anything will really chance, unfortunately.
» Nuttz on 2012-07-18 09:18:11

Playing with fire is always so captivating, even though you next to always get burnt in the end.

Also, what an amazing career path to be headed down!
» BelleoftheBlues on 2012-07-19 10:29:36

You can hang with Elessar and Helena!!! If they still live in Laredo.... Do you speak Spanish? Wait, so you're moving to California for the campaign thing, right? What don't you like about California?
» Zanzibar on 2012-07-20 05:07:06

I envy what you're doing

You seem to be very busy and working toward your goals. I look up to that a lot.

As for you lady friend... that sucks. Sounds conflicting... and difficult to work out. I don't know man...

Yes I will be your library wingwoman. I'm great for any occasion and location! Now I sound like a whore!
» dont-see on 2012-07-21 12:49:04

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