Thursday. 6.4.09 9:26 am
I think this blog has a pattern. A negative pattern. I only update this one when I'm feeling low. Sometimes a little too low and there's no one I can talk to whom I think will understand. I am keeping the bad stuff away, trying to appear as happy as I can around people but sometimes I just don't understand why whomever that is controlling fate or whatever stupid dumb coincidences somewhere loves to put me in situations which will make me feel really really really bad about everything.
I'm starting to realise that there is quite a big amount of truth in the sentence "the strongest is most likely the loneliest of all". I was once told quite requently in a week that I'm a strong girl and I'll pull through but sometimes its just so damn annoying that I'm always stuck with people who gets things easily in life. WHY? I know that there's always a silverlining to every dark cloud but I can't seem to just find mine.
No doubt I am grateful that I can still do what I want but till when will this last? I don't like the situation I am in right now and I don't know how to change it nor do I think I am able to change it like fast.
Tho, I'm going to pray a little harder, bet a little more and we'll see if I will get a miracle. After all, almost everything is at stake and I think I'm going to have to resort to the extremes this time.
sometimes seems like it will never be more than that, a lining. I know what you mean, people all over have things handed to them, but then people like you have to work hard to make things happen. It pays off eventually, just having to wait for "eventually" to happen is a pain in the @$$.
Stay positive :) » PinkPanther08
on 2009-06-04 12:13:33
I know how you feel, girl, and I hate it just as much when someone tells me this, but there is always someone out there that has it worse off than you. I still get depressed and I want to only be upset about my own problems rather than think about the good coming from them.
but there is. there is a reason for everything and even if you don't know it right away or you may never know, it will show itself at some point. it's okay to be upset and frustrated and cry, but as long as you don't stay in that state; as long as you can still genuinely laugh and joke around, then you're okay. it sucks having to wait for time to pass before things get better, but with time it will. » LostSoul13
on 2009-06-04 08:05:20
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