Thursday. 2.5.09 6:03 am
I'm so sick of so many things right now. I know I'm supposed to be looking at the bright side but not being able to express my feelings thoroughly is getting in the way.
I don't know why but all the things that I can't change is always, always making me so irritated that I feel very, very unmotivated. The best part is that ignorance which is supposed to be a bliss isn't! Just cause I chose to not ask questions, not take certain steps, I feel like I'm taken for granted of. Furthermore, how many things can I ignore??
I guess that's one reason I chose to study one subject that most people doesn't like, accounting. I rather face facts and figures, spend a lot of time facing inanimate objects and have a lot of "invisible friends" than face humans and expectations. Seriously, I wonder is it me who attracts all these kind of people or is it me that doesn't know how to change my view so that everything seems normal. Then again, what normal is depends on your point of view.
It's so hard! Some people are so selfish and conceited!! When they want to ignore you, you're totally not alive and when they need someone to whine at, it's like you have some kind of neon sign over your head saying "person who you can ignore after whining".
Maybe I shouldn't give a fuck about human interrelationships anyway. It's a dog eat dog world! It's so nice to be a kid. So innocent, so oblivious, so happy.
hmm... i'm sick of people as well so that is why i chose to keep quiet. » renaye
on 2009-02-05 08:08:24
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