Thursday. 1.10.08 1:04 pm
ah, its so hot today, and someone had forgotten to wake me up
mm well, i woke up and saw a sweet little message on my phone... hmmm not such a bad start to the day, EXCEPT THE HOTNESS ...
it hasnt rained for the past ages, i want it to rain!!!
ok, my last entry was ummmm... ages ago..... oh well, so we GOT our results [finally] ... not knowing what may happen this year still... but i guess the future is a tad more clearer... at least theres a rough idea of what is ahead of us... i cant wait till my course starts, but then again... what will happen when it all starts? it all somewhat seems like a whole new novel being written... a whole new setting is introduced, time place people ... what effect will that have? we're all busy again? hmmmm... is that a good or bad thing? where will i be?
ah yes! for those who have been bored enough to read my entry till this paragraph, does anyone have any suggestions as to how to persuade your mum to let you move out? ... errr... to your bf's place? ah yes, we're all little 18 yr olds.....
theres so much to worry about =[ .. sometimes i wonder if its even a good idea at all to move out to his place... how long will we be happy for? a few days? a few weeks? a few months? a few years? forever? [being too simple minded?] how do i conclude whether or not HES THE ONE! i mean .. ok compared to all my other bfs, i fight with him the least... well we dont really 'fight' since if the other few times i just got pissed and he didnt really bite back...... and how does he know that IM THE ONE? i mean when a guy's in a relationship, wouldnt he always say 'i love you forever' well most of the time anyway? and how many of those guys really mean it? how many of those guys end up saying that same line to 3 or more other girls?
maybe i shouldnt be thinking so much into this, but i cant avoid it. if some things happen once, they can happen again. someone who said they'd love me forever is now i dont even know where haha, i completely don't talk to them at all either, not that i'd want to. this has only been a 3 month relationship. it cant guaranteed that say another 3 months.. or 6 months... or 9 months later that he'll just randomly say 'game over' geees... ok thats just over analysing .. if everyone were to think that way, no one would be together ... or no one would be happy in their relationships -.-"
how many relationships have you all been in? how many of them did you initially think 'yes im going to be with them forever till the end of time'? and has that happened [well are u still with them lol]? how many of the relationships have you taken 'seriously'? as in.. you guys talked about the future, planned it, talked about kids, or even naming them [creepy for some huh]
yeh strangely enough, i been through all that, and i guess because it failed once, i sometimes do worry it'd happen again... but its all a learning/experience process huh... gosh i was 16 - 17 at the time, thats some insane age to think about all that crap, so i suppose i shouldnt and didnt really take it 100% serious... but what the diff with this one... im 18... hes TURNING18... meaning not 18 yet? and let alone guys mature later than girls.. if they ever mature that is..... he could just be another one of them, right?
eurgh this is getting lengthy, i dont know why im thinking so much, and its getting hot, and i need to hang out the washing...
Categories: 2008 [t]
it's been raining cats and dogs here like neverending...
» renaye on 2008-01-10 09:12:35
blah blah blah...... ur seriously think too much, i said i love u and ur the first one i said it to(seriously that is). ur the one i want to share my joy and happiness with. the one that truely understand me. ur always there for me and most of all u love me as much as i love u. how could i let someone like u go. only an idiot would do that, but i tell u im no idiot. i love u baby, FOREVER and EVER and EVER........got to go now bye!!!
» (203.19.124.184) on 2008-01-10 09:03:55
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