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Books I have completed reading since January 2021:

1. The Enchanted - Rene Denfield
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Tuesday. 11.3.09 6:52 pm
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I can seriously say I am happy with my life. :)

But I understand what you mean, I went through the same shit before I liberated myself. Now everyone knows to shut up and let me be. And instead of bottling everything up and hurting myself like I used to, I now speak anything on my mind whether they like it or not. And I do anything I want, whether it turns out to be a good choice or a bad one. But hey, mistakes are unavoidable but it's okay as long as we learn from it.

I can't exactly tell you how I managed to liberate myself from the expectations and dictations of family & society though. I think a lot of it was due to the fact that I was always in boarding school. From high school to matriculation to university in Kedah. It was easier to distance myself from ties when the distance actually exists.

Now I'm engaged but I feel that I'm being suppressed by my fiance's family through him. They dictate every decision and he simply follows even after we both talked about it. It's frustrating, especially since I've broken free of it and now I'm falling back into it. But it's time I put my foot down (even if they might think I'm not such a nice girl after this) and that I'll do things my way whether he wants to join me or not.

So renaye, the only thing I can advise you is this: be true to yourself. If you don't like it, say it. If you want it, chase it.

I know it takes a lot of courage but I'm sure you can find it in you to break free one day too.

Now my relationship with my parents is so much better compared to the times when they tried so hard to make me do what they wanted me to do. I guess now you can say we have mutual respect for each other.
» (58.71.156.51) on 2009-11-04 08:16:51

Ah sorry, that was me. I accidentally clicked add comment without retyping my name. Gah! Your page always rejects my comments at the first click. T_T
» Chika-Chin (58.71.156.51) on 2009-11-04 08:18:17

Chika-Chin =

wait. u R a GIRL? I have always thought u r a GUY? first thinking .. a guy .. then fiance .. 'his family' ... i nearly end up rolling laughing on the floor of my own silliness. HAHA. i never knew u were a girl!!

so what is ur plan now after resignation? it's cool to have money entering our bank account while we watch anime in our house, eh? unfortunately i haven't found that kind of job yet. haha then i will be absolute liberal!

my parents know they cannot force my sis and i especially me to do what they want. but still i hated people doing something for me because they r looking at the money sign in return. this is my parent especially my mother. it somehow depresses me that whatever she does for me is because of the money i will be bringing home to her. my mother is materialistic and i'm not. and i don't see the reason of feeding her materialism because i don't even give into my own materialism. my mother is blind enough not to see there is a clash of personality and beliefs.

i know i cannot feed her materialism at the expense of my own pocket so i taught her about investment and encourage her to invest, and she called me GILA for forcing her to invest. since then, i clammed up about investment. i'm here trying to teach someone to swim but if the person prefers to have a float for life, then i cannot help.

i have no time for people who don't want to help themselves and like to complain. my mother is one of them.

life for my family may be 'harsh' to my mother but on the brighter side, we have properties and the luxuries that many people could only envy from far. we have food to eat, and we have been to luxury restaurants. my mother has my sister to take her traveling around asian countries... has money to buy clothes. so what is more to ask?

my mother never understands me. she only understands her daughters through the money sign.

i'm never happy with my family though my personality is chirpy and happy, that is from the outside. i have distanced myself before and have tried to make the relationship in the family to work but it takes two to tango. and i have been bullied.

i have had enough.
» renaye on 2009-11-04 07:39:48

All the best!
Dear Renaye, I applaud you for listening to your heart. You are doing the right thing for yourself. Go for it! Don't be afraid to be different. I wish you all the best and may you have the courage and strength to see yourself through the path you have chosen for yourself. Gambatte!
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