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You're unsure if I am a loose end or a strand
that waits for you to mend or understand
A few words
"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend."
~ William Blake
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Sunday, February 28, 2016
Gym time today: 2.5 hours.
Total this week: 2.5 hours.

I was super tired this morning, but managed to drag myself to Cycle at 8:30. Today we had a "show tunes spin" class, so all the music was from musicals. It was the instructor's last day, too, and some people brought flowers for her. I guess she's going to go back to working in theatre. After class, I went on the treadmill... didn't really feel up to running today, so I just walked at 3mph at a level 10/11/12 incline during my half hour break. Maybe it was for the best, because my knee felt a little weird during Bosu Blast. I guess I tend to associate high impact stuff with intensity though, so I didn't feel like I really worked out much today.

When I got home, I pretty much just... slept. For hours. Five hours, in fact. I did wake up at some point during that, but... yeah, five hours. I guess I was tired.

Haven't done too much since I woke up except take a shower and eat. I ended up reading some stuff on Wikipedia about psychological mindedness, metacognition, and mentalization (and here's another interesting one on mentalization) though. I guess... I tend to assume that these are things that everyone is intrinsically capable of, but maybe that's expecting too much. Probably because of the way I was raised, I view high expectations as an optimistic thing. My parents never gave me much direction (or much structure), and I got criticized a fair amount when I screwed up, because I was the oldest and was supposed to be more responsible and know better. This felt frustrating and unfair a lot, but at the same time, it meant that they assumed I was competent and could figure stuff out on my own. I had some rough patches growing up, but overall, I feel like I have risen to meet those expectations. Maybe it was a self-fulfilling prophecy at work in the long term.

I don't know if the way my parents raised me is right for everyone (and they did make some mistakes), but it certainly seems better than being babied and endlessly coddled. I feel some mild distaste for parenting styles that produce emotionally fragile and incompetent people who need constant validation for... doing nothing but "being themselves." Honestly, I don't think that freely expressing yourself is necessarily anything to be proud of in itself. Not getting anxious over other people's opinions of you is one thing, but I feel like some people take it way overboard and get defensive at the slightest criticism.

Good things for today:
-I had the free time to take that ridiculously long nap. I mean, there are things I could have been doing, but nothing urgent.
-My mom got some fish juk for me, and it was yummy. There's not much to explain about that beyond I was pleased that she got something I like for me.
-After Cycle this morning, since it was the instructor's last day, some of the women in the class wanted to take a group photo with her, and they kept gesturing for me to get in the picture too. I don't know how the picture came out, but it was nice to feel included, and I felt like I was able to smile with sincerity instead of just feeling self-conscious and awkward about it.
-Sean put a picture from New Year's up on his OKC, and I was in it. I don't remember seeing it before, but I felt like my smile was pretty decent in it too. Maybe I just look happier in general. I also felt good about having these pictures of myself with friends. They remind me that I have people in my life who care about me, and that's important.
-Noah has been showing me different versions of a song he's working on, to ask if I think things are better or worse in each. I'm happy that he values my opinion enough to share his song with me in this way, and I also think it's super cool that he's making music at all.

I heard this song on the radio the other day and love the sentiments in it:

"My Girls" by Animal Collective.

There isn't much that I feel I need
A solid soul and the blood I bleed
But with a little girl, and by my spouse
I only want a proper house
I don't care for fancy things
Or to take part in the freshest wave
But to provide for mine who ask
I will, with heart, on my father's grave
On my father's grave (on your father's grave)
I don't mean to seem like I care about material things
Like a social status
I just want four walls and adobe slabs
For my girls
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