Spirit of Eden by Talk Talk. The Suburbs by Arcade Fire. current jamz.

I enjoy having the house to myself for the most part. I feel like I could use some company but I think I often overestimate the therapeutic value of solitude. I had a great weekend in Arlington. Jon is going to Harvard law school in three weeks. That kid is going places. In eighth grade he sat in front of me in history. We both listened to Thursday. We've always been kindred spirits. In high school they declared him special needs, his handwriting was so bad they made him use this portable keyboard thing to type everything out, ha! God I admire him. He just decides what he wants to do and fucking goes for it. People actually do that? Apparently so.

I have brief moments occasionally when I wonder if I'm ever going to stop dicking around and take life seriously. But I mean that's the thing about Jon, its not a big deal to him, he's not a martyr like everyone else seems to be. I keep coming to that conclusion lately. That breakdown of ego. People with that attitude always seem to have it together anyway. Who knows.

I've always had an ego problem. That's, if not, my biggest problem. But during the most recent echelon of my emotional development I like to think that I have gained some humility.

I also saw Ben this weekend. Our 10-some odd minute exchange was bittersweet. I was the one who built a fucking wall. Sorry 'bout that, Ben. I am at peace to know your life is going well.

Jess seems OK. Stuck, but hopeful. She'll pick herself back up, she'll have to learn how, but I have faith in her. We all have to learn how to play the cards we're dealt. She has a particularly challenging set of circumstances to navigate through. She's stronger than she knows.

good night and good luck.

I almost stopped by your town today just so I can leave my mark on your home.

I've never been too into Arcade fire..

as for Jess... I'm worried about her.
» Dilated on 2010-08-15 11:16:31

btw

i hated thursday. i liked saves the day.

and my special ed past is one i've tried to forget x.x

» Dilated on 2010-08-15 11:26:01

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