The password for my school account is expiring tomorrow. I usually take the time to change all my other passwords when Tech prompts me. I usually base my passwords on important things or recent events in my life, but nothing major (or -

wait.

Duh.

ANYWAY

You know how nuTang likes to tell you how many baboons you have at your service? Does that mean anything, or is it a random number? It doesn't seem to correspond to page speeds or anything.

I made a friend a little over a year ago. You may recall that I met her randomly on a camping trip and that we got along quite winningly, despite living in different states and having zero natural points of contact. I actually got to meet her again over the summer in another completely coincidental...church trip, actually. Huh.

ANYWAY. I made some decisions about that friendship, acted on them, and have now completely hamstrung it. It's quite sad for me, actually. She's upset with me to an unknown extent, and there's nothing I can really do or say to make it up to her. I'm wary to probe her much, partially because of the nature of the decisions I made, and partially because I really don't know how she'll take it. Seems like my best option is to leave her be, and see what happens. And that's what I shall do. This has been a learning experience.

In other friendship news, I also happen to have pretty much zero contact with my highschool best friends. Remember when I wrote an emotionally charged letter (writing letters and voluntarily exposing my vulnerabilities: two things I rarely do) in order to patch up a friendship by apologizing for my over-reaction to him going behind my back and dating the girl that I had feelings for? Yeah. We don't talk much. And that makes me sort of bitter, honestly. I went through a lot of crap with this guy, and I went to a lot of trouble to be there for him, and THEN I swallowed my pride and everything so that we could continue to be friends.

For what?

And don't get me wrong, I don't wish that I'd not bothered. Not exactly. I'm glad that I acted how I did. But...it'd be nice if it was reciprocated, right?

It's that way with a lot of my highschool friends. Ironically, one of the only ones I talk to consistently is unicornasaurus. It's ironic because we dated, twice, with violent results. And also because we have very little in common. AND YET HERE WE ARE.

I don't get it. Friends are weird.

On a brighter note, I have gained quite a few friends at Tech in the past year or so. Like...a LOT. I have around 730 friends on Facebook right now, and I estimate that at least a hundred of them are people from my church who are just awesome and super loving for no reason other than Jesus...which is the best reason? Anyway. As upset as I can get about the status of my old friendships, I certainly have no room to complain. Good place to be, yeah?

Distance and time puts a lot between people. Most of the people I held closest, in high school, are now just...memories. Like we put out the fire and all that's left is the smoke and the smell of wood burning. Life is weird in that way. You move away and move on. I'm not sure that I dislike it entirely.
» Unicornasaurus on 2012-10-21 11:50:37

WHAT DID YOU SAY TO THE GIRL!?!?!?!

That is frustrating that your friend didn't really reciprocate. Did he answer at all? Sometimes when I've had a big fight with a friend I feel like we eventually forgive each other just so we *can* drift apart and let each other go. The friendship has reached its natural conclusion but because of the leftover resentment we each still have to think about it. Then we forgive each other and we can be neutral about not being friends any more. Kind of weird.


» Zanzibar on 2012-10-22 03:35:36

"Violent results" sounds ominous, haha.

I am also curious about what happened with this lady friend of yours, but I imagine that you would have described it more if you wanted to tell us.

I find it interesting that one of the high school friends you have retained is here on Nutang with us.
» randomjunk on 2012-10-23 11:47:00

Sorry to hear about your friend... at least you got it done and over with and is going on the "what if".

Some friends come and go, I guess.. I have a few friends dating back from elementary school that drifts in and out of my life and well, sometimes the time apart would do you good.

About friends you have little in common with and yet still are friends with, sometimes the difference is what keeping you together. A breath of fresh air and outlook.
» Nuttz on 2012-10-27 08:37:15

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Yes, I did notice. It is pretty nifty. Such a looooong background pic!

Relationships are, truly, weird. Especially old high school friends and relationships seem to grow and morph. People grow, change, circumstances--life--pull and push people apart and together.

Sometimes things don't always end like you'd like. But as we live on and move on, it ends up being *okay*. Not always ideal, but that's life.
It's okay. =)
» invisible on 2012-10-28 09:47:50

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