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Yes, the title is an allusion to Metroid Prime. Deal with it.

During yard day, today, my brother and I had an adventure with a hornet nest. It involved Soft Air guns and a video camera. Hence the silly title.

I'm not sure I'm content, right now. Things are changing. I'm changing. People are getting harder and harder. At the same time, I'm turning into a kind of mean dude. I always tried to be nice, but now...not so much. I'm short, sarcastic, and impatient. You know? Like, I say something I think is normal, and people just stop and look at me like, "Did he really just say that? What's up his ass?" And, really, I dislike people who act like this. I've always wondered, "How can someone live like that? Do they enjoy being so...unsociable?" Well, now I'M the one with a chip on his shoulder, and no. I don't enjoy it one bit. I want to be light, and happy, and just annoyingly chipper and crazy. Like I was less than, say, two years ago. I swear, two years ago.

I used to read a lot. But now, I don't. I barely read at all. I've got at least six different books on the side, but I can't find it in me to just sit down and read them. String Theory, Christian Apologetics, two fiction books, the Bible, and a few magazines. Actually, after this, I might just go and read. Maybe the computer's taken over. I certainly spend a lot more time than I used to in front of it.

I should only use the computer for doing something important, like creating, shopping Threadless, or homework. That's it. No more of this random surfing stuff.

And AIM is horrible! One thing I love to do is talk to people. To get out there. And I just love when you can talk to someone for a few hours on end. And really connect. Sometimes I get on and just...float around. I don't know what I'm waiting for; nothing's going to happen.

I miss that immensely. It doesn't happen very often for me, unlike some people I know. (AHA! A touch of resentment!)

And I don't exactly have the greatest role-model when it comes to relationships. Alas, yes, I was referring to relationships. Because...well, I don't know why. But I can't stand the silence.

EDIT: *reads older posts*

Man. I hate the way I used to type. It's so hard to read. Glad I learned good habits from nuTang, eh?

Sometimes you say something. And you realize that what you just said could possibly be the door to a more personal part of you, and until now you never noticed. And the person you're talking to never will.

umm srry i guess wow i havent commented in awhile...srry...love the title lol!!
» mason (208.104.37.191) on 2007-09-02 09:33:53

You're never stuck in a rut without somewhat wanting to be there, for one reason or another.
» Unicornasaurus on 2007-09-02 11:41:32

I thought it was a huge coincidence
But it turns out that I'm a nerd enough to remember War Wasps from Metroid prime...stoopid nests always sapped my missles.

I'm feeling you on the change. As a matter of fact, I think I shall go post an entry about it after this. I have friends in school who I have fun with, but outside of school there are only a few who I can genuinely trust, because all the other ones are busy getting drunk or high. And it was never like this, or at least not this bad, until the summer. They have parties, f*ck themselves over, destroy whosever house it was at, and then think post pictures of it as though to say "damn I'm cool." I'm SICK of it.

*Ahem* sorry got a little carried away there.
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-09-03 12:46:15

The mean thing could be a phase. When I look back on my relatively short life I can see patches where I was the nice kid, and others where I was a relentless bully. You just have to know that nothing lasts forever.
» randomjunk on 2007-09-03 03:36:15

I hate reading my older posts because they make me feel like I suck at writing.

Do you have Metroid Prime: Corruption?
» Dilated on 2007-09-03 08:08:43

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