Okay, it is much better. I thought Melissa (pyrogrrl12) would be feeling downright crappy on my birthday, so I wasn't going to even bother wondering if she'd want to go out, but she does! I won't have to be sitting at home alone on my birthday, so I suppose that is really good.

Brian's mom is going to get my hair done for my birthday. I know how I want it cut, but I'm not sure if I want to chop it all off before Mellanie's wedding. I want there to be hair to do stuff with versus having no hair and nothing that works with doing stuff with. I'm still debating. Mellanie said I could have my hair however I wanted, but still, if everyone is going to do updos or something, I don't want to be the only one with short hair and it look funny. I don't want to be the maid of honor that people are like "uck..." when they see me.

In other news, Gregory has been sleeping in his own crib for a few weeks now. He's even been sleeping all night long! How the hell did that all happen at once? On top of that, he's getting 2 teeth down in the front. I don't think I filled ya'll in on that little detail. He's been incredibly fussy, but I guess it's all worth it since he's getting his little teeth. Poor guy...he's probably in a lot of pain or something.

I have a follow-up appointment for my anti-depressants tomorrow. 2 weeks ago, I went to the doctor and they put me on Cytalopram (generic of Celexa) which was helping quite a bit. I did feel a lot better and things were going well. This past week though, it really hasn't made a difference. Either the dose isn't high enough or it is not working in relation to my hormones. I have a history of depression and I noticed it back when I lived in Washington. I would be happy or more agreeable for 2 weeks out of the month, and then the other 2 weeks, I'd be really crappy and depressed. I figured it revolved around my period, so I went to the doctor. He told me I had 2 options - birth control or anti-depressants. I cannot take birth control because I have migraines and people with migraines are more prone to getting blood clots which is not good for birth control. They put me on Zoloft and things were extra peachy. I moved to Colorado and didn't bother getting back on them because the change in climate and how sunny it was really improved my outlook on things.

After Gregory was born, things just went down the tube and I got extremely depressed again. Went to the doctor 2 weeks ago and that's where I stand. I don't think this anti-depressant is working because it should balance out my hormones. To me, it really hasn't balanced them out. When I was on Zoloft, I was happy all of the time including those 2 crappy weeks. On the Cytalopram, I'm happy for the first 2 weeks, and still crappy the other 2 weeks. I'm going to talk to him about it tomorrow. Maybe they'll up my dosage or just put me on Zoloft like I wanted in the first place.

Anyway, I'm going to go to bed...I'm beat and I have to get up early.

I should be fine to go out. Plus I am sorry about all the stuff going on with me...I bet that didn't help out your depression at all.

Maybe you also need to change some things in your life. Not major things, but start doing stuff that makes you happy...and not worry about everyone else all the time. (I know it is hard to do..I have to do it myself)...maybe we can get through things...depressed... together. =) I am here if you need me! =)
» pyrogrrl12 on 2007-06-25 02:00:34

Yeah, I have felt like a piece of crap all day for doing it. It was either run him over or let him die slow and painful. I keep telling myself he shouldn't have been in my house and he would have never got caught in the trap but that's not helping. Sorry to hear that Gregory is fussy and hurtin' from his teeth. Ethan is in the process of cutting his too. Poor little guys. Hope your doctor puts you on the meds you want. I hate telling them what you want and then they rather try something else. Really ticks me off, lol. Take Care
» Princess_00 on 2007-06-25 02:06:10

I know that I suffer from depression, but I refuse to seek help about it. I don't take meds for any reason {unless its Nyquil; Nyquil is good :P}
that's really good that Greg is sleeping through the whole night. At least now you can get some rest. And for his teething... my mom used to buy us mini bagels and freeze them. This way whenever my sister and I were teething, she'd give us a frozen mini bagel and it would numb our gums and as it thawed it would give us a treat to snack on. Not sure if it would work with Gregory, but its a suggestion. =)
» LostSoul13 on 2007-06-25 02:12:17

Depression is known to hit mothers who just given birth so don't worry about it. I know a few teachers of mine back in high school with really bad depression cases after giving birth. Wow.. Greg is really growing fast huh? I hope he wont start biting you just yet.. I remembered when my youngest brother started sprouting teeth.. he was trying to bite everything and anything expect himself.
» Nuttz on 2007-06-25 02:23:18

Zoloft... is that the one that has the little white thing that kinda looks like a cross between a dollop of whipped cream and a chocolate chip...?
» randomjunk on 2007-06-25 02:25:25

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