This whole baby thing is just so scary. It makes me think that I'm doing something wrong and all that :(

When he was born, he must have been really stressed out because he had to poop right before he came out (which is usually a sign that the baby is in some sort of stress) and not to mention, they think that I had some sort of infection as I was in labor forever and had quit actively dilating at 9cm (you need to be 10cm to deliver). I must have been stuck at that marker for 4 or 5 hours. I think he just wanted to come out, but I couldn't get him to.

THEN, we were having so many problems trying to regulate his body heat. He kept having his temperature taken and he'd be under the normal range...so they'd put him under the warmer for a while to get his body heat up and he'd be okay. Then his temperature would go below normal again. They ended up running some blood tests on him to see if anything was wrong, but his white blood cell count came back normal and everything was just fine. They were thinking that maybe our room was a bit too cold for him and he was having trouble adjusting.

NOW, he's up in the nursery. I fed him before they were going take him up there anyway to do all his tests (the hearing tests and all that...they said it would take an hour). Right when they were coming to pick him up, he started to spit up pretty bad and we thought it was because he just had to burp, so we patted him and thought everything was okay. The nurse just came back in the room not too long ago and said that he'd been pretty much throwing up all his food that I just fed him and he was having a lot of trouble breathing. They're going to clear out his stomach I guess and see if that helps. She says that it's very common and that a lot of the time, babies will swallow the amniotic fluid and all that before they come out and it gets stuck in their stomach and that it's okay. All I can think of is that it was my fault he started spitting up his food in the first place. She says that it isn't, but I can't help but get this feeling.

All of this and we're still not even at home yet. I mean, if all this happens when I'm at home too, I won't have a nurse to come and rescue my baby. It's just all too scary to me!

Tomorrow (or later on today, however you want to look at it since it's so early), he's going to get a circumcision (and probably not be very happy with us when he's done with that) and hopefully, if things are going smoothly, we'll get to go home from the hospital tomorrow. Me, I'll be discharged...but my worst fear is that with all the random problems little Gregory's been having, they won't let me take him home! I'd be very sad then...I hope it doesn't happen...I really do hope that it doesn't happen that way...

Well hey..
At least he came out fine right?? All the best.. Hope you can take him home.. and take a few pics in the process.. Hahaha
» Xboyz on 2007-01-14 08:19:31

ahhhh...... 1st time mother????
by the way Congratulation.....
u can hunt for mother's blog to get some ideas...
» jolenesiah on 2007-01-14 10:27:40

I hope you get to take him home tomorrow. I'm sure he'll be fine. If they can regulate premature babies without issue, yours should have no problems. :) my best wishes for you and the baby. XD
» LostSoul13 on 2007-01-14 01:07:21

Congrats!!!!
Sorry you're labor was so long. I agree with you that the whole baby thing is scary. I'm still a nervous wreck. I just bought a bunch of books to read and get a lot of help from my mom and Cindy. Every little problem I'm calling one of them. Well, I do hope you get to take him home with you. If he does stay another day then you should be able to stay with him. That's what they did for me cause Ethan had to stay one more night to make sure we had the whole breastfeeding thing down. Take Care and give the little guy bunches of hugs and kisses for me....
» Princess_00 on 2007-01-14 04:37:01

I know it seems scary but you're a 1st time mom and your fears are legit. I do hope that everything goes good and you can take him home tomorrow.
» Southern on 2007-01-14 04:56:54

hahahaha
"Jewwed". Anyway..congratulamalations on the lil anklebiter! Ewwwwwww swallowing amniotic fluid!!!!!! Now I can't eat my soup and soup is all I can manage to eat.
» etheracide on 2007-01-14 06:46:07

aww
sending good thoughts to you all. i know it seems hard, and your first reaction is to feel guilty, but try to get some rest. he'll be a lot more at ease if you're relaxed. heh and as far as circumcision is concerned...he wont even remember it 5 seconds after it happens. remember that bris i shot? he was right as rain as soon as he got to eat again.
» invisibleinkling on 2007-01-14 08:31:43

He'll be all right!
Don't worry if they keep him in the hospital for a couple more days, the nurses will nurse him till he's well again before he goes home with you. I'm sure you'll be panicing like hell if he has any random problems when you bring him home(hopefully that won't happen).
» Nuttz on 2007-01-15 01:58:41

When my mom had her first kid, she was in labor for 36 hours and they finally had to pull the baby out with forceps! haha. All three of us came out with the umbilical cord wrapped around our necks, strangling us. And then my little sister had aspirated the meconium... (basically breathed in her own poop...) and they had to suck it out of her lungs so that she could breathe. And we all turned out just fine. ;)

I bet my mom must have been pretty freaked out, though.
» Zanzibar on 2007-01-16 06:16:09

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