This day was just utterly depressing.

I went to work and that was all good, I guess...then I got off work and Brian was supposed to come over to my house. He calls me and asks if I want to go over to his house to have dinner (they were having roast beef...beef doesn't agree with me)...I decided not to eat dinner, but I went over there anyway because we were going to go to a movie or whatever.

We went to the movie and we get done at about 10:30 and we're driving back to his house and I had a gut feeling he wasn't going to come over anymore. He was like, "I'll let you decide if you want me to come over or not." Well, that's just like saying...well, you can guilt me into coming over but I don't really want to. That was depressing right there...

I eventually just told him to stay at his own house. I'm going to my house whether he's there or not. I left pretty much in a foul mood.

I just don't understand what the hell I'm doing wrong. I guess I'm just not good enough to live with while we're alone...and the only reason he's going to have to live with me now is because of the baby. It's like some big obligation...I guess this whole relationship is an obligation...I don't know. I don't think he feels that way, but come on...what the hell is wrong with me?

today wasn't really the best day for me either. I don't really know why; you would think that with me leaving in 2 days I'd be happy, but today I was just in a blah mood. I hope you feel better soon! :)
» LostSoul13 on 2006-12-19 01:47:59

I know how you feel
I'm kinda thinking the same thing. Things were all good and then...it just slowly started to spiral downwards. I'm not going to go into the specifics or anything...but I keep wondering is it something I did? I just wish things would go back to the way they were.

Maybe you're not the one doing something wrong....time will tell. Anyways, I hope all goes well in the end :) And if I'm not being rude in asking...what movie did you see XD. Haha sorry that was kind of a mood-wrecker, but curiousity is a terrible thing....
» The-Muffin-Man on 2006-12-19 02:03:03

Today wasn't really good for me too.. I guess your guy's just having that pre-baby thinggie since your baby's just a month away. I don't think it's your fault. *hugs*
» Nuttz on 2006-12-19 03:18:06

I also agree..has nothing to do with you. Other than the fact that you picked him to be with I suppose heh Considering that he turned down offers to live with you before and is apparently considering doing it now...then I'd tend to think that it has a good percentage to do with having a baby with you. I just hope at some point he isn't going to somehow try to resent you for it. Not saying that I think he would since I do not know him but it's a possibly response in this situation.

gooood luck!
» etheracide on 2006-12-19 07:31:01

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