My boring day turned into an overly shitty day.

It's amazing how one day you can be extremely happy and content with things and the next day be depressed and distraught. I'm not going to go deep into the details because it's nobody's business but my own, but blah...

I usually use music as my saving grace. Music usually helps me pull through anything. I can just flip it on and it seems like my problems all melt away...but there are certain instances where things are just so horrible, stressful or disturbing to me, I can't concentrate with the music and I feel more at ease in silence and solitude. Maybe it's because I'm so mad or frustrated with myself, but I can't think with the music going...not even classical music (which is usually comforting)...I have to shut it all completely off. If I had a TV, I'd be shutting that off too...I don't even want to go anywhere right now...do anything...be anything. Even just sitting here in front of my computer, the humming of the computer is driving me nuts...I'm driving me nuts!

I want to go to bed and cry my eyes out and wish that today never happened...well, parts of today...the depressing parts...the parts with me in them

A lot of people are like that about music, but most of the time it doesn't do anything for me, unless I'm bored and in need of entertainment.
» ikimashokie on 2006-10-01 03:52:47

I did cry today but then I slept a little and I felt better...

I hope you feel better too.
» randomjunk on 2006-10-01 09:10:02

I've had days like that. music normally comforts me too, but a recent incident made it hard for me to even concentrate on the music, so I felt good just sitting in the silence.
» LostSoul13 on 2006-10-01 09:46:06

Depeche Mode
Words like violence
Break the silence
Come crashing in
Into my little world
Painful to me
Pierce right through me
Cant you understand
Oh my little girl

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

All I ever wanted
All I ever needed
Is here in my arms
Words are very unnecessary
They can only do harm

Enjoy the silence
» etheracide on 2006-10-01 11:35:45

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