End of my first semester in college is coming up. Like other students fresh out of high school, I'm tired of being broke. Parents are offering money if I go full time, but that idea doesn't satisfy my need to feel independent. It probably wouldn't be that much anyways. Part time is more relaxing, maybe with a part time job. I'm tempted to say put college on hold for a semester and work a full time job to save up money, because I've had it with 12 years and counting of being stuck in a desk being forced to listen to "an expert" with slides. I don't know quite what to do, but I know I don't want to live with my parents forever, and be broke for the next three and a half years.

Forget college loans, they need life loans for students! So, I'm really confused, don't really care about the "statistics" of how supposedly once you stop college, oh you won't go back till you're 35. That may be true, but I'd like to think that I'm the type of person that can have the discipline that can make the money for a semester, be happy, and go back over the summer or next fall. College is more of an investment isn't it, that doesn't pay off until you're done, and later? Well what if I invested in myself for the adventure of it? Then, maybe I'd be more happy with being in college.

I feel that I'll probably be more motivated, and just more satisfied by doing this. That I would have explored the outside world and gained a piece of it!

So I'm thinking, continue do Accounting 2 next semester before I forget it all, the Nooblet College Success Skills, and a couple of courses online for part time. That would be part time with about 12 credits, with a part time job. Either that or go full out with online/in person 18 or 20 credits to get it over with for the next few semesters. Or, once again, work full time, and wait till over the summer or next fall.

If anyone has some real life experience, or can relate, feel free to share! Help! haha.

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mood: dissapointed, sad

listening to: nerd - she wants to move

watching: me type this :oP

I'm currently writing this for reflecting purposes hours later now that I'm slightly cooled off. Everything seemed to go along normally, woke up, got ready, and went to college. Everyone was done with their speeches in public speaking class, then we all started talking about our different views in our own groups over the topic our group picked specifically. I stated my opinion, and my family's on the issue, and the person or one of the people I trusted most in the world just started talking crap about my own mother. I wanted to throw some fists and some curse words, but I thought to myself, just block this person out, move along, whatever. It was one of those family secrets that you only tell your close friends or what not, and this person just spilled it, and it didn't even pertain to the actual topic in the class. I was like what in the world?!?! Is that really neccessary? I told this person off, and walked out of the class since it was over.

I felt it was a personal attack, instead of just debating over the topic, it rose to another level.

I love my family, I know they're not perfect, everyone has issues, but it just hurts that someone that I really care about would go to such lengths to try to degrade me in public just to try to somehow TRY to prove their point in this topic. Is it right to spill your friend or gf/bf's family secrets/issues/problems just to TRY to give yourself more credibility?

I couldn't even focus in my next class I was so frustrated. I wouldn't even look at this person I was so dissapointed. I could hardly sit in the same room and breathe the same air as this person, so I had to stay out of class for the first five minutes. I've been pretty grumpy all day, but I'm glad I can vent it out here on this new awesome site. haha.

Well I think I might feel slightly better after writing this, and I'm gonna go hang out with my family, maybe go shopping or atleast dinner time. haha. Gnite every1, hope your day was better than mine. <3

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