Seven more months till I graduate in college.

I've satisfied all my major requirements after taking so many units during my first and second year. I only need to take a few classes to keep my full time status, so I feel slightly relaxed now.

With my non-major GPA, I am graduating with high honors (Magna Cum Laude). I feel that all those sleepless nights and living in isolation for the past few years finally paid off, and I'm really thankful for that.

And more than anything, I am walking for sure. The date and time are already listed on my university's commencement site: May 4th 2013 at 9:00AM.


And yet...I am sad. No, it's not because I am officially done with school. It's because I know my whole family wouldn't be there to witness an important part of my life.

It's not like I blame them for not being there because I know (and I am sure) that given the chance, they would readily fly over here to be there for me. But that's the thing: I am here in America, and my family are all spread out in Canada, Japan, and the Philippines. Aside from the expensive travel expenses, the fact that the US Embassy is so strict when it comes to letting foreign people enter the country make it so undesirable to try. It's impossible.

It reminds me of when I graduated in high school. We were given ten free tickets to give out, but I could only use two of them for my dad and my uncle. I tried to hold it in because I didn't want them to know that I was down about it. So I feigned happiness and acted like I was doing okay.

I feel like I have returned to that moment again. I've recently received a call from my family in Canada and they told me they can't come (serious reason), and the same thing goes for my mom in Japan (money problem). It really can't be helped.

Sometimes I wish I am not so faraway.

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