I'm not sure if any of you are Ed Sheeran fans, but even if you didn't like his album "+", his new one, "x", is brilliant. I love it.

So, in the last few months, I have kicked depression's ass. Like, it got the ass-whooping of a lifetime. I didn't think it'd come back... but it has. It's trying really hard to get me again. I'm doing everything I can to overcome it, though. I'm not going to let go of the things I love again. I'm not going to isolate and keep quiet. I'm going to reach out and boldly tell those close to me that I need a little help.

I've been trying to do that today. I can feel myself on the edge of a downward spiral, so I'm trying to just spend time with people and everything... it's just nobody has time for me. And that really kinda hurts. Nobody is responding to me. :(

Anyways... I guess I'll post a couple pictures of my paintings at least. :)







Those are my favorites that I've done :)

I have an Etsy shop, too. I'll post a link once I've got it all set up the way I want it.

I really wanna watch LotR or The Hobbit or something. Nobody to watch with other than my parents and I'm not really digging that lately. They keep prying into my life lately, and I know they mean well and just wanna know what's going on, but I just don't want to deal with that right now. So... yeah.

My boyfriend is moving away on Tuesday. He doesn't want long distance. I'll adjust... but it'll be hard. I have to go deal with everything again. Did I already talk about this? Probably. Oh, well. That's just what's going on with me. It just feels too soon. I'll probably just sleep a lot to deal with it. I think that's a great way to deal with shit... sleep it off. (Actually, it's a terrible way to deal with problems. They're still there when you wake up and you just wanna cry more.)

I'm writing music again. Trying to get enough together that I can start playing shows and eventually start recording it. When I move out, my bedroom will really just be a art/music studio with a mattress on the floor. Haha. I've always wanted that. And I'll finally get it.

Life is good. I don't want to lose sight of that.

Also, while I was driving yesterday, this grasshopper landed on my arm and I just picked it up and threw it in the middle of my car not knowing what it was... so then I had to catch the damn thing while I was driving so I could throw it out the window properly. It was ridiculous. But yeah. I voluntarily touched a grossy gross bug. Ha! I'm tougher than I thought! Then, while I was on the highway, my headlight came un-taped and was flying all over the place, hanging on by just the wires... Had to pull over and tape it back up. It was one eventful trip.

Yep! That's all that's going on, I think. :)

I like the bold colors in the first painting.

I'm really sorry to hear about the situation with your boyfriend. :
» randomjunk on 2014-07-06 03:58:04

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