Good Lord, it's January. Twenty fourteen.

And, my, have things happened!

One night out with some friends at a bar we liked to frequent this summer, someone asked, "Where do you see yourself in five years?" And I thought, "Shit, if I don't do anything soon, I'm still going to be at the friggin' library!" Since that night I have been considering this in the background of my consciousness but it wasn't until about November when I started planning out just what I was going to do.

1. Quit the library job.
December 31st was my last day. As much as I love the people I worked with and the job that I had... I really needed to do something else, to move on. It had come to the point where I wasn't going to go anywhere in that place, and now that I live in the city I really needed to move on. Especially with having no car.

2. Go back to school.
Some of my considering included what I wanted to do about my education. When I was going to JCCC I had no purpose, focus or vision to keep me going. So, like any motivation-less individual, dropped most of the hours I attempted the last couple semesters I was enrolled there. I had no idea what I wanted to do, so I had no plan on how to get to "nowhere/anywhere". Having now decided I really do want to study English literature I now have a vision! What would I do with an English lit degree? Teach? Ha, don't think so! But what else? I don't know! I just know I would like the journey of getting one. What I do with it afterwards is beyond me. And not really the point, if you ask me.
I am in the process of applying to the University of Missouri Kansas City (or, UMKC) for their English program.

3. End up in the UK somehow.
I've always had a dream of seeing various bits of the UK and parts of Europe. So much of what I love comes from England, Ireland, Scotland, etc. I have been heavily interested in ancient histories, especially the Celtics. I have an (over-romanticized, dreamy) idea that I would like living there, even if it's just attending a book shop, or serving coffees and whatnot. I just want to go be a part of the society, living and breathing there. Seeing it all, taking part, contributing. Sure I could do all those things here, but I'd ever so love to be there. See it first hand. Maybe all I need is a visit, but somehow I see myself living on the other side of the Atlantic ocean. I'm not good at dreaming, I usually don't remember the dreams I have most nights, but this is one vision I can visualize and so want to make it happen.
We'll see!


Meanwhile I got a job at an Italian restaurant down my street (three blocks!). So that's convenient. Although they haven't scheduled me much (read, scary/whatabouttherent). I'm chalking it up to the fact that I'm still being "trained." I've not been scheduled at the Tivoli as often as I'd like, either. Which is also not great. Blahblahblah. Hopefully just leaving a note for the scheduling guy with an update will ...work? "Hey! I don't work at the library anymore. My availability has changed some. Please work me all Saturdays ever so I can eat okthx."
I really need this to work.

So many changes! I'm not sure how well I'm really handling them. Mostly I do lots of nothing, and not thinking about what January will look like at the end of the month. Will I have made enough to cover rent? Do I get to eat? How reliable are these hours after all? Questions constantly running in my mind that I don't have answers to yet because it's all in the futuuuurrrrrree.
This is hard for me.

If you are a good writer you could make some money off tutoring and such as well if you're studying English. Also, I hope you do get to go to the UK!

My Facebook is almost exclusively for people I've met in real life, haha. Have to segregate all my online identities...

Would you recommend Kansas City as my next trip destination? :P
» randomjunk on 2014-01-08 02:36:27

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Its not lavender, though that would be cool! My hair is a dark brown and my bangs are all peacock colored. I'll post a picture over the weekend.


Taking a big leap like that is always scary! Its sounds both exciting and terrifying. haha. I am sure it will all work out! =) I would also love to travel to all those places too! I read some books that took place in Ireland and now its all I ever think about when I think about traveling to Europe!
» SporadicFunk on 2014-01-24 11:25:17

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Yeah I like Engineering. I complain about the workload but I feel pretty rewarded so it's fine :>
» peanutmelon on 2014-01-31 12:58:16

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