I had a feeling, and my feelings are usually right.
My boyfriend and I broke up.

I'm sure this is something you guys would all LOVE to hear about. Not really. But I'm going to write about it, still.

I guess I won't talk about the breakup through the whole blog, for it hasn't exactly officially happened, yet. Basically he'd been acting strange for a few days. His text messages were off. (I know, they're just texts, but I can usually tell) Well, finally, I posted a blog on Xanga saying that I over-think and worry too much. He saw and asked me what was wrong. I told him that I felt like something had been bothering him lately, and that I could be completely wrong, but that I had been getting a strange vibe from him.

Here are the two things that made me know FOR SURE that it was a breakup.

1)He replies, yes, something has been bothering me. We can talk about it later though. I won't just stop talking to you or whatever.

I reply with a "I already think I know what it is, but yeah."

2)He replies, Yeah...we can talk about it more though when I have free time, which may be never lol.

He asked me how school was, I said it was eh. He -sigh-ed, and said that he didn't want to lose touch, and added a "Plz." at the end.

All I want to know is why. We were PERFECTLY FINE on Friday at game night when I saw him. And I was actually able to game. I just...bah. I'm tired of getting hurt. I think I might decide against them until I get to college. Or SOMETHING.


IN OTHER NEWS...
I realized today how much I truly love Theatre. It gets my mind off of everything, I love acting, I love singing. Love love love love love!

Today was the THIRD time I called Linens n Things back to schedule an interview, and they told me that they were short one operating manager, and that they would put my name at the top of the list and call me back either at the end of this week or the beginning of next week. I hope they remember. I really need the job.

Now, all of my girlfriends were comforting with the whole breakup thing, but actually, the two people who made me feel better the most were Gabe and Zach. It was really nice. Guys can give you more advice on what THEY think and whatnot. Girls just sympathize with you and are like "OMG I AM SO SORRY"

I do not cry for attention. Ever. ESPECIALLY in school. Today was the second time, during school, that I absolutely could NOT hold in the tears.

Ugh. I just...want to get over it already. It's already going to be hard seeing him and going to his house on game nights.

Jeeze. T.T

You're right about how girls deal with problems. Usually I have advice, actually, but I don't want to give it in case people don't want to hear it...
» randomjunk on 2008-09-16 06:17:45

Well, in this case I don't have anything to say, never having experienced the situation for myself.
» randomjunk on 2008-09-16 09:04:11

It's hard not to try and help like a girl would when that's what we think girls want, a lot of the time.
It'll get better. Try not to overthink.
» Unicornasaurus on 2008-09-16 09:07:32

Man, that DOES suck.
The whole "breakup from the blue" thing is the pits. I agree with Katie. Seriously, just don't think about it. Go theatre!
» middaymoon on 2008-09-16 10:24:28

theatre! there's always audition for theatre back here but i never went for any audition because i don't know how and what to act... i don't know what to think!
» renaye on 2008-09-17 12:19:24

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