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mortality - i shudder at the thought.
Saturday. 8.11.07 10:35 pm
Mortality. A deep word with a deep meaning.
Ever since I was a kid, I had always been afraid of dying. I had fantasies of being able to live forever & even thought about how I might live to see the creation of some antidote to aging, postponing my fate.
I've always been afraid to know how I am going to die. Will I die in an accident? Murder? Plain old age?
All these thought about dying makes me realize that I really can't tell. Who am I anyway? I'm just one of a billion other people who don't want to die. Why should God make me live on? Do something for humanity? All the good people died [whether they're partying in heaven, I have no idea].

So, you may say, "Why is Frostie blogging about this?"

Well, my aunt just died yesterday. I'm sadder than hell. :( She was my second mom back home, and she died without even seeing us. She was the liveliest of all my mom's siblings and she made everyone laugh with her jokes and antics. She was taken by cancer, just like their dad, my grandfather.
I still can't believe it. She's part of me, you know. Always been there with the family and now she's gone. Just like that.
I hate mourning. I've always hated it because I couldn't show my real emotions in front of other people. I'm insensitive like that, but I don't want them thinking I don't care. Because I do. :(

Wherever you may be, Minim, I'll always love you no matter what. ♥ Rest in peace. ♥

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So much depression today. It's wierd how I can read about the life of someone I've never met and still feel melancholy (Sank posted a sad entry today, too)

I don't really know what to say...I feel terrible. I agree, mourning is the worst feeling, because you never know how to fill the void or how long it's going to take. Hope everything smooths over soon :(
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