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yup thats me.....im a hater......i hate fake people...... heres the story....... :

two years ago i went to an internship type thing that was based out of a church in vallejo california.... entitled bay area masters commission.... i thought because it was so highly church involved that it couldn't hurt. (and i also wanted something that would level my ass out cause in high school i was one wild female...[read some past blogs.....like the shower one.....]) well as life would have it i went throught the first year...... barely learned anything and then went back for a second year..... during my second year i felt like i had to defend myself to my current best friend (of whom i shared my room with and i met my second year....her first) I know what your thinking.....you only met her a year ago and she is your best friend..... and my response..... spend 24 hours a day 7 days a week for a full year with one person and see how close you get to them..... back to the story..... so i felt i had to defend myself because of the things that they were telling her about me.....all of which were rumors or ideas of rumors (i.e. "you'd better be careful around stephanie cause her and trin were friends last year and trin is the one that took a fall and got kicked out.") yes that was actually said about me.... so the whole year we went through crap like that and our friendship still made it..... well. when she had decided to go back for a second year i expected nothing less. I knew that the same people....(the leadership).... was going to try to break our friendship apart..... the only worry i had was that i was no longer right there to defend myself.....well when she got kicked out..... for the stupidest reason in the entire world i might add....she told me that they were straight up telling her that i was holding her back and she needed to let our friendship go..... well she didnt but here is the problem i have..... there is another friend i have in there that i have been friends with since freshman year in highschool and these people are telling her the same thing........ Oh but when i went down there to visit her and my best friend (before she got kicked out) they were all hugs and smiles to my face asking me how i was doing....... i just feel my blood start to boil when i think about....... i think the worst part is that these people are "christians" not really cause if they were they wouldnt be trying to screw my life up....... well fuck you...... fuck your intentions, and fuck your words........ your just jealous cause i got shit together in my life and next year ill be making three times what your making oh and i have boys interested in me and oh yeah........ i can go out and drink without losing the relationship i have with God and still stay true to myself..... my head isn't all up in the clouds talking about we need to watch our language when all you do is cause dissension..... oh and the next time you see me do me a favor and act like you dont.... cause i dont want a fake ass hug or a fake ass how are you or anything else from you...... bitch.