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| Prozac Monday. 10.19.09 3:20 am God, forgive me for this. How can I live like this? In fear of what could grasp me? I can feel their talons clawing at me. Their blood red eyes thirsting for me. Lust indescribable. I fear the howlings of the coldest nights. The aching pain, like rusted knives shredding you, but no marks will be left on your body. It frightens me. And I know it shouldn't. God is with me. Or so the bible says. So His Word says. But am I with Him? God, I know all this questioning is spurred on by the dark. But what do I do? I feel numb. I feel a supposed contentedness. No real pain. No real sorrow. No gnashing of teeth. Yet... I want more. I miss the music. I miss the dance. I miss the cravings of what could of been and what could still come. It is a life of pain and misgivings, but there was a danger. A wildness. A life. What is my failings?! Am I forever doomed to repeat my flaws until the gaping earth devours me? I am at a stale mate in the chess board of good and evil. I only wish I knew which side I play for. I know many would deem this entry madness. Musings of religious fanatic gone wrong. But you weren't there... You didn't hear the unearthly wailing cries... I couldn't even watch this at first... But I feel better now that I did. Maybe I do play for the right side after all. 0 Comments.
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