Why do I feel fear?
What is wrong with me?
I have never felt the way I do now...

I've always loved storms and the cold.
Now I can't seem to be in airconditioning with a hoody and we just started to have a storm... and I... I feel scared, like something bad could happen, and the air feels too cold and harsh...

What is happening to me?



The other day at work, a few guests of ours were talking to us in the lobby. As they were leaving I told them that if they needed anything else to let us know. One of the ladies, who was slightly tipsy, jokingly asked me to hug the older gentleman who was with them. I said "no" and he said "no", but just as they were leaving she turned around and said, "well, I need a hug." and before I knew what was happening she had her elegant, graceful, and wealthy arms around me. What was weird, though, was that as she was pulling away, she grabbed my hands and with all earnesty, she looked into my eyes and said, "It's not all bad, it's not all bad..." I didn't know what to say or do. She said it with such conviction and reassurance. It was as if she had switched into someone else for a split second before returning to her regular tipsy, smiley self. And she turned around and laughed about something different, and left up the elevator...
I don't know why she did that. I don't know what possesed her to say that...
...but somehow... I know that was meant for me...

That's kind of weird, but cool...
So now I'm endorsed, Mr. Senator?
» middaymoon on 2008-10-10 07:04:51

people come and people go , but there are some i would say significant ones would some how leave an impact. we might not know wht it is untill we're faced wth a particular situation and that the line she told u " its not all bad , its not all bad.." might jst come in handy :)
» AlexisNg on 2008-10-17 08:28:32

r:c
lol.. creepy yes, but i wasnt afraid or scared , more like i was wonderin why am i a character in a game? well, one thing for sure ive not played any games since god knows how long.

yea, i totally get wht u mean by that. some significant ppl's impact is jst to great to jst not notice or put it aside, its like its gonna some how impact our whole life.

well not exactly sure wht u mean by "jacked up" but wht im sure of is that no matter in wht condition u are, there's always a silver linin to everythin, - good things happened for a bad reason n bad things happened for a good reason : somethin i always tell myself, perhaps its a way of comfortin myself but somehow the end result that matters. Helena? not sure who, for im pretty new here. (24th sep 08)
» AlexisNg on 2008-10-17 10:14:10

r:c
Yup! very new n im addicted to nutang! lol..addiction is somethin im not good at stayin away. :)i somehow love to indulge in addiction, its like a solace at times.

i dont know wht exactly u went through there but i know that its pretty hard to change things around but that doesnt mean u can change it. you gotta have a lil faith in urself. miracles do happen. to me when we're positive we attract the positive vibe! so its time to bring some positivity to ur social life :)

ah.. the island..yes, know i got it :)
» AlexisNg on 2008-10-18 03:07:09

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