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I am
My Unkymood Punkymood (Unkymoods)
My puritan self
Monday. 10.15.07 2:33 am
What's wrong with me?

Why does love avoid me? Nay, it flees in terror. It only stays when it's not wanted. As if to taunt me. It's causing me to react in ways that aren't good.
I now feel the need to act distant and apathetic in order to keep who or what I love around. I fear that once my love is exposed, whatever it is will dissapear.
And how does this tie in to everything else going on?
I know it does SOMEHOW. It's got to. Otherwise I wouldn't be having similar responses with everything else.
It all seems like one step forward and two steps back.
School, home, church.
What does this all mean God?


P.S. Being seen as a puritan insulted me. Simultaneously, I completely understood why. However, all I know is that I feel I should be able to rant about God on here without being seen as a puritan. Especially after much of the negative things they did. Frankly, a main distinction between me and a puritan is faith. I lack it. In large amounts. Unless that isn't clear enough in all my pessimistic posts. The reason why I believe in God is mostly logical. It makes all the sense in the world. I have a tendency to over-analyze EVERYTHING. In doing so, as a child/young adult/teenager/up until now, I have come to the conclusion over and over again that a godless world is impossible. Utterly impossible. And having faith in God is almost as silly as having faith that everything exists simply because it became so for no apparent reason. So, next time you feel like saying something offensive, please just call me any of the following TRUE insults:
- crazy
- psycho
- freak
- weirdo
- dude with an immeasureable amount of issues
- asshole
- jerk
- douche
- dick
There are more to this list, but I hope this list will suffice for now.
5 Comments.


Funny thing is, I'm learning about the Puritans in school right now. :P And, though they definitely influenced the American culture, I just can't see how ANYBODY could be like them in this day and age.
» randomjunk on 2007-10-15 03:32:00

If I wanted to call you seomthing it would be...a nice good person whose perspective is a little skewed from some bad breaks. :)
» lyndeep on 2007-10-15 11:32:49

would look up more for the definition of puritan.
» renaye on 2007-10-16 01:59:49

Is it bad when you give a list of insults and I check them off as things I see in myself? XD

You a Puritan?! HAHAHA!
» Katrina on 2007-10-17 11:56:40

I know what you mean about love. Sort of.
Almost every friendship I've made has blossomed right before I have to leave. Like at the end of school, the end of the year, right before I leave for another country for a year...

P.S. Who would want to insult you? :]
» Sarah on 2007-11-25 10:40:48

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