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My Unkymood Punkymood (Unkymoods)
Supervillainy
Wednesday. 12.20.06 1:01 am
Sometimes I want hug her, hold her, kiss her, tell her I love her...
...other times I just want to strangle her to death. Literally.

She drives me insane. Kryptonite, if you will. I don't react the same with everyone else. I bend nearly every rule in my book for her. Don't know why. Some say "DUH! YOU'RE MADLY IN LOVE WITH HER!" and frankly I have to disagree. I've been in love. I know what that looks like. This isn't it. I'm not even "in lust" with her, I believe. If anything, I'm probably "in passion" with her. We have no in betweens when we're together. We either want to desperately love each other or destroy each other. Though, I know I'd win. Unfortunately, if I won I'd ultimately wind up losing. This is why I want to ditch the scene and watch the city burn, among many MANY other reasons.

I don't know. All I know is that I feel like living for once. And I can't do it with others any more. I realized sometime today (I think. I don't know. I've been sick. Time blurs together.) that all this time I've been waiting. I've been waiting for someone. Someone to be my friend. My partner. My guide. My own. Just someone. I can't wait anymore. I've wasted all this time waiting for someone that isn't coming. It was stupid. I'm not waiting anymore. I'm going out on this on my own. Love is something on that is no longer my concern. Not the love for another, but romantic love. That wretched vile thing. I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life, but I'm certain I will do without it.
I don't care anymore. I don't care if people think I'll be living a midiocre life. Or that I'm not up to my "potential". I want nothing to do with all these earthly treasures. They reek of human blood. Blood spilt for my comfort. F**K THAT! I'll find my own way. My own path. she used to say that... "If you don't like any of the paths set before you, then make your own..."
It's the always the hardest way, but that's where the battles come in. And you can't ever be a hero without battles, can you?

I really can never get her out of my head, can I?

Eh, oh well. Let's journey on, oh destined soldier.
2 Comments.


love
just take ur time when comes to finding true love: someone to complement your happiness. don't be in a hurry.
» renaye on 2006-12-20 02:46:34

love
Not looking for it. Already found it. Now I'm running away from it.
» elessar257 on 2006-12-20 10:38:36

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