started dancing again few months ago.... and now... i have injuries!!! SOB SOB!! i'm scared to visit the doc... coz i dun want to get the "u need to rest for 6 months" news... that will be too horrible!!! i know it might be due to my sudden exercise from non since 7 years ago!!! eecckk!!! brought this to myself...

would really love to keep on dancing even when i become a grandmother... i'll be damn cool, i bet.. MUAHHAHAHHA!!! i want to be still active...

i have learned to feel my body and listen to it... but sometimes... i dun treat it very well... i'm aging... and i need to take care of it... no one knows wat's going inside... when i think about it, more young people are having problems with thier bodies.. will that cause even more for our children?? the thought is scary....

to do my part, i will eat right, sleep right, work right...

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my sister complains that i give out this really depressing aura... when she sees me, she feels her energy drained too...

i wonder do i really give out that aura... maybe...

for instance, i would go crazy, talk nonsense, laugh loudly for like half an hour.. then after that i'll be quiet and just listen to the conversation of the group and smile along... i won't hit that craziness anymore... unless i'm under alcohol influence..

i would like to think that i give out a calming aura.. hehehe.... one that makes people soften and relax.... that's when i get to listen to true thoughts and honest views of others...

speaking of which, i think i compensate my low energy level by hanging out with friends with high energy level.. they stay at the high state for the whole day!!!! and night!!! i wonder how they do it...

guess i'll have to put more effort in being a sunny energized person for longer period of time...

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staring at the screen... wondering what to reply to your comment... it didn't give me an opening to continue...

it has come to this.. nothing more than random comments between us... when we were so close before... when our hearts beat as one...

have you changed? am i still living in the past?

you asked to be still good friends with me... i guess that doesn't apply now... with a new her by your side...

we are back to strangers....

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went shopping with a friend today....she rejected most of the items that i picked... :~( i liked what she picked out though... not all but some....

so is it better to go shopping with ppl that have similar taste as urself?
or to go with someone who has a different fashion sense than u??

i like going out with both... it's exciting to know someone agrees on ur choice... but it's also nice to try out new designs and styles... get out of my own comfy zone... to see myself in a different light... haha!!

i should arrange shopping trip somewhere but not here... dun wanna have clothes clashing moments when i go out in this small island...

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remember those few ppl whom u thought "hhmm... maybe something will happen between us... *blush*"

i had a few... the racing heartbeat when u're close to that person... when u open up and feel glad that someone really cares... the excitement u feel when u receive email from him or her.... or to see that person online and he or she sends u a message the moment u're online... thinking bout that person... imagine being in a relationship with that person...

however... the feelings that make ur cheeks red faded somehow... because of distance... because of a flaw that u can't accept...

when u discover that person has a gf or bf... how do u feel? i will feel thankful that we met... crossed path... will miss the warmth and intimacy felt during those moments... i will also feel sad... coz i'm no longer special to he or she... people move on with their lives...

oh... the almost-love....

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work... it has been 10 months since i started working... how time flies... monday to friday... i will have things to do... things that need constant updates... things that made me tired of updating sometimes... but still need to keep up... is it because i don't prepare for the future?? maybe?? i take one day at a time.. sometimes bit too laid back.. hehe..

when i started my job, i would bring work home... now... i would just be a couch potato after work... am i showing resentment towards work discreetly?? is there even such thing??

though i'm glad to have the spending power... and not rely too much on my parents... it's nice to see improvements of the kids... it's good to know that my ideas are not that bad... it's nice to be able to do what i want...

there were times that i had to sacrifice my own personal time for work.. i get annoyed... but it is my responsibility... and i receive help from others too... am not doing it alone...

am i happy doing this job? i'm not complaining... it's a job that i can do... and am satisfied... i don't know whether i'll stay for long... i'll just make each day better...

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