I guess my car is parked a long way from the main building, oh well I guess I’ll just have to walk. I always have to walk a long way, but that’s ok as long as there aren’t a lot of people. Yeah, in case you didn’t know I’ve got some severe social anxiety.

Alright I’m at the end of the sidewalk now… Oh shit! theres a bunch of people standing around talking… Now my legs feel funny and I feel kinda shaken up… kinda unsure of where I’m going and where I’m stepping. It’s almost like my legs went from auto to manual in the blink of an eye. My torso seems like it is swaying and I can’t conrtol it… Oh shit I’m gunna look like an idiot.

Ok I’ll just have to focus on walking and not wobling around too much. For some reason it’s really hard and it’s almost like I can’t control myself… I wonder if this is just due to fear. It has to be, it only happens when I am walking by people, especially people that I know… but not too well… kinda like aquantences.

So anyways, I’m controling each leg individually and it feels weird… It’s like walking all of the sudden became not second nature like it used to be… My torso still feels like it’s swaying… I’m already past them, but I know they can still see me, and I’m still walking like a three year old. I’ll be okay once I get to my class and sit down.

Well the truth is, this happens to me a lot… I dunno why, it’s just weird like that. Must be that social anxiety kickin in full force. Even after I sit down, I hardly move a muscle… I think I want to be a hermit…

Yeah... I got problems...

Ohhh
Ohhh poor baby. I didn't know it was that bad. :-/ You need...help...lol
» AshleyEverhart on 2004-05-14 02:02:24

yeahhhhhh i dunno... i think i'm screwed for life
» Zig_Justice on 2004-05-14 03:28:46

peter...not to be mean or anything. but seriously it's all in your head get the fuck over it and move on. why the fuck do you care what those dumbass people think? you'll never talk to them, you'll never meet them. they're nothing. so, why do you care about nothing? you're too cool to worry about nothing.
» lenas_life on 2004-05-15 02:30:06

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