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So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
The Profile Zanzibar Age. 39 Gender. Female Ethnicity. that of my father and his father before him Location Altadena, CA School. Other » More info. The Weather The World The Link To Zanzibar's Past
This is my page in the beloved art community that my sister got me into: Samarinda Extra points for people who know what Samarinda is. The Phases of the Moon Module CURRENT MOON Writings
Poetry The Tree and the Telephone Pole The Spider I Do Not Know Their Names The Mouse Blindness La Plante The Moon Today I am Young A Night Poem Celestial Wandering Siren of the Sea If I Were a Dragon To the Dreamers Leave the Sky The Honor of the Oyster Return From San Diego War My Study Defeat A Late Summer's Night Of Dragons and Men Erebus The Edge of the World The Race Dragon's Spirit The Snake's Terror Spirit Island Metaphysics Metaphysica Transponderae Metaphysics and the Middaymoon Of Adventures in Foreign Lands The Rogue Wave: The Unedited Version Adventures in the PRC Voyage of Discovery Drinking the Blood of Goats Ticket for a Phantom Bus Os peixes nadam o mar Three Villages Far Away The River Weser Children I Should Have Kidnapped, Part I Let's Get You Out of Those Clothes Radishes Three-Piece-Lawsuit If Underwear Could Speak Croc Hunter/Combat Wombat
My hero(s) Only My Favorite Baseball Player EVER Aw, Larry Walker, how I loved thee. The Schedule
M: Science and Exploration T: Cook a nice dinner W: PARKOUR! Th: Parties, movies, dinners F: Picnics, the Louvre S: Read books, go for walks, PARKOUR Su: Philosophy, Religion The Reading List
This list starts Summer 2006 A Crocodile on the Sandbank Looking Backwards Wild Swans Exodus 1984 Tales of the Alhambra (in progress) Dark Lord of Derkholm Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? The Lost Years of Merlin Harry Potter a l'ecole des sorciers (in progress) Atlas Shrugged (in progress) Uglies Pretties Specials A Long Way Gone (story of a boy soldier in Sierra Leone- met the author! w00t!) The Eye of the World: Book One of the Wheel of Time From Magma to Tephra (in progress) Lady Chatterley's Lover Harry Potter 7 The No. 1 Lady's Detective Agency Introduction to Planetary Volcanism A Child Called "It" Pompeii Is Multi-Culturalism Bad for Women? Americans in Southeast Asia: Roots of Commitment (in progress) What's So Great About Christianity? Aeolian Geomorphology Aeolian Dust and Dust Deposits The City of Ember The People of Sparks Cube Route When I was in Cuba, I was a German Shepard Bound The Golden Compass Clan of the Cave Bear The 9/11 Commission Report (2nd time through, graphic novel format this time, ip) The Incredible Shrinking Man Twilight Eclipse New Moon Breaking Dawn Armageddon's Children The Elves of Cintra The Gypsy Morph Animorphs #23: The Pretender Animorphs #25: The Extreme Animorphs #26: The Attack Crucial Conversations A Journey to the Center of the Earth A Great and Terrible Beauty The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian Dandelion Wine To Sir, With Love London Calling Watership Down The Invisible Alice in Wonderland Through the Looking Glass 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea The Host The Hunger Games Catching Fire Shadows and Strongholds The Jungle Book Beatrice and Virgil Infidel Neuromancer The Help Flip Zion Andrews The Unit Princess Quantum Brain The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks No One Ever Told Us We Were Defeated Delirium Memento Nora Robopocalypse The Name of the Wind The Terror Sister Tao Te Ching What Paul Meant Lao Tzu and Taoism Libyan Sands Sand and Sandstones Lost Christianites: The Battles for Scripture and the Faiths We Never Knew The Science of God Calculating God Great Contemporaries, by Winston Churchill City of Bones Around the World in 80 Days, by Jules Verne Divergent Stranger in a Strange Land The Old Man and the Sea Flowers for Algernon Au Bonheur des Ogres The Martian The Road to Serfdom De La Terre � la Lune (ip) In the Light of What We Know Devil in the White City 2312 The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August Red Mars How to Be a Good Wife A Mote in God's Eye A Gentleman in Russia The Fatal Conceit: The Errors of Socialism Seneca: Letters from a Stoic | Heart of Darkness Thursday. 11.5.09 4:08 am "Well, you can leave me in charge of the camp at South Fork while you all go to North Fork," I said to J as we sat in the science office. It was 9:30 pm local Antarctic time, and the sun was blazing through the window. "After a while I'd have a little fence made out of human skulls, all ready for when you got back." "Oh, I would have thought that you were using our skulls to make the fence." "All in good time, J, all in good time." I was being silly, but he turned suddenly serious. "You know, you seem all sunny usually, but there is something deep in you that isn't. It kind of scares me." I didn't know how to take this comment, and I wasn't sure if he picked up on my reference, but I decided that it was an opportunity. "Do you ever feel like some people have a darkness inside them? Darkness that isn't inside of other people?" He looked at me askance. "I don't mean 'evil'... not that kind of darkness... and I don't mean 'depth', because there are a lot of deep people with interesting thoughts who I wouldn't say have darkness within them." Now he seems to know what I mean. He has a certain amount of darkness inside him, too. We start naming people who we think have darkness and the people who don't. We agree very strongly on certain people, like the Welshman [darkness!], though we can't answer exactly why. There are people with anger, yes, people with melancholy, people with melodrama, people with depression, people with fear of ghosts... we aren't talking about any of those people, we both agree. We aren't talking about the kind of darkness that swallowed Kurtz as much as we are talking about the kind of darkness that swallowed Marlow. It's this kind of cosmic melancholy, this kind of deep stirring. It has something to do with ghosts, maybe, something to do with the Universe. Something to do with mortality, something to do with immortality. It isn't a good thing, necessarily, and people who don't have it aren't missing out on anything.... It's just a thing, this thing that's always there and mostly manifests itself by causing the afflicted to sit for hours just staring not at the world, but through it, seeing nothing. However sunny a person, occasionally you would hear his voice tremble or see a fleeting look in his eye and you would know that there remains deep within this person an area in deep and permanent shadow. Sometimes this person feels like it could reach out of his soul and consume him. For all this, having lived with the darkness, he would no sooner give it up than he would his own life. I don't have to explain this to J. He knows what I mean. 10 Comments. Hahaha... I'm really tired and don't have time to read. I'll read it later, but I just wanted to comment because Helena HATES Joseph Conrad. » elessar257 on 2009-11-06 03:21:07 actually what do u mean by inner darkness? » renaye on 2009-11-06 10:59:57 HEY!!! an entry!!! yay!!!!!! I miss your musings.... but, elessar is right. I do not like JOseph Conrad - we've had bad experiences together. But! I totally get what you're saying. More than I probably should. *hums while gathering care package items* » Helena on 2009-11-07 10:12:26 I always love your writings, but, I never feel like I know what to say. However, I feel like I identify with this entry very much... And because lately I've been so busy with work that I can only come to nutang occasionally -- you are in Antarctica?! That's sounds like a really great opportunity ^_^ » bluetopaz on 2009-11-08 09:44:17 proud of u in antarctica most of us will never get to go. i dont read your blog often enough to know how you got the chance (sorry about that =P im rarely here.) in regards to this darkness within...*sits and stares through life* there isn't much i can say that is better than what you already have. » Silver-dot- on 2009-11-25 12:31:45 DO I HAVE THE DARKNESS?!? And NY is cold.. but it would make our union of holy matrimony more of a realism,'ya dig? I'd be making the move for US, Zanzi. Dilabar is what I'm talking about.. 9 PM and the sun is still shining.. sounds horrible. » Dilated on 2010-01-13 09:52:33 Waaaaaaaa » middaymoon on 2010-01-13 10:58:00 That's what I get for introducing some of my friends to nuTang. Thankfully I rarely, if ever, get into serious fights with my good friends, so they'd always be welcome to read it. I thought 500 Days of Summer was fantastic. I'm working on getting the soundtrack to see if it stands alone well. I don't care about basketball enough to do that. -shrug- But you're right, people tend to play harder to make up for mistakes, and he stifles that. Welcome back! How was your trip? » middaymoon on 2010-01-17 01:04:33 HECK YEAH I DID!!! Get your postcard from the frickin' ARTIC!! I was all 'look, i have really cool friends' to everyone who would listen. lol... And i'm SO SORRY that I didn't get to send you something while you were down there. I was having financial difficulties which was LAME. But, I've been thinking of you ALOT and I still want to send you some stuff! Seriously, I've been scouting things to buy you for months. So, I need your new address. Yes. » Helena on 2010-01-17 08:41:24 Takes a bad turn. Today I read on this theme much. cheapest levitra Certainly, certainly. buy phentermine online It is happiness! buy ultram online You recollect 18 more century alprazolam 2mg I have not understood, what you mean? purchase tramadol 6a0c57a » Morton (95.30.220.17) on 2011-07-10 04:30:20
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