...NO IDEA.






I was hospitalized, the other day. Dehydration, mostly. That night, when I woke up in my own bed after a car ride back and a completely-forgotten walk up to my dorm, I started feeling all the stress of my mishap and essentially went on a texting spree. No one made me feel all the way better, not even the people I'd hoped would elicit an emotional response.

So I texted someone I especially didn't want to tell. He'd taken a trip with friends, a few years ago, and I'd decided, before he left, to give him a hug and say nothing of the MRI I was scheduled for. He HATED that I didn't tell him, before he left.

I just didn't want him brooding in a corner when he was supposed to be having fun. Instead, I took to the brooding corner enough for both of us. I didn't tell him until a week later, and he gave me all the hugs I wanted, for a while, because he knew I was just stupid and scared.

So...again I get into a zone of physical danger, AND AGAIN I SAY NOTHING.

AND THEN I HAVE TO TEXT HIM BECAUSE I KNOW HE'S THE ONLY PERSON WHO KNOWS HOW TO TALK ME DOWN. Something about a hick accent...hehehehehehe.

Essentially, I texted him asking if he could talk for ten minutes. Without texting back, he called me and talked to me.

Well. Kind of chastised me, actually, for the first five minutes, while I was still crying a little. He told me that I should have told him, blah blah blah, and that he would have driven down, had he known.

What?

That's three hours, you beautiful man, you.

He played it down and made me feel like I could and should totally ask him to drive down if I need him...which...I mean, usually I would be like, Yeah yeah, really modest, you're so cool, EXCEPT YOU'RE DOING IT BECAUSE YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVER ASK SO YOU CAN FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF--

Except I know he would get in his car and drive, if I ever called him and told him I needed him.

I want to do that thing where you gently pat the side of someone's face because that's exactly how awesome that person is--TOTALLY UNINTENTIONALLY--and how much you just want to hug that person.

I can't explain how nice it was to have someone say all the right things. Nothing guarded, nothing for show, nothing selfish, nothing half-hearted. He told me he was glad I'm okay and to call, if there's ever a next time. Well. He said more than that, but nothing I'm terribly interested in sharing.


Nothing else is new, really. :] It's just nice to know that, after six years, some things never, ever change.

Sounds like a damn good friend.
» randomjunk on 2011-12-12 02:38:52

word. marry him.
» Zanzibar on 2011-12-12 02:50:53

lol to the above. Hick accent? Did you mean thick? Or just like a southern drawl?
» The-Muffin-Man on 2011-12-12 05:16:07

I'm with Zanzibar. And I can't sleep either! Ugh...
» Midnight on 2011-12-12 10:49:16

lol

» middaymoon on 2011-12-13 01:08:03

AWESOME friend. If *I* was that good of a friend, I would super want to know when you hurt yourself, and why you didn't tell me! This guy's a keeper for the long-haul.
» invisible on 2011-12-15 05:12:34

Hehe....my ex has a slight southern accent as well. I'm rather fond of it too :)
» The-Muffin-Man on 2011-12-15 06:02:46

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