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Thursday. 7.29.10 12:57 am
Problem.

I feel like I'm at a disconnect with the people in my life. Like I always have to second guess what I say or do, because it's never really funny enough, or clever enough, or WHATEVER. I'm always worrying about whether or not I come off as a boring person, or whether or not I'm entertaining enough...or whatever. I don't like it.

I think part of it is because I'm sort of at a crossroads, and I haven't really gotten around to deciding the kind of person I want to be. You guys know what I'm talking about.

I feel like...I need someone to help me through this, but I can't really rely on anyone right now. I have the Lobster, but we don't really talk about stuff like this (maybe we should?) I have a friend who I know would always be there for me...but they're not exactly looking for just friendship from me, and I don't want to send any of the wrong messages. So..I dunno. It's a tough predicament.

On a lighter note, I finally finished reading "The Alchemist" :) It wasn't as striking as I expected it to be, but I think that's because most of its message wasn't a surprise to me. It was more of .... a good reminder about what I need to do with my life.

Here's a great quote from the book...

"He was sure that it made no difference to her on which day he appeared: for her, every day was the same, and when each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day the sun rises."

Remember folks, when you want something, the universe is always conspiring in your favor, even if you don't understand how. You just have to get up and go.

Muffy over an dout
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Do not try to bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead, try to realize the truth. There is no spoon. Then you will see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
5 Comments.


First paragraph of this entry: welcome to 90% of my life for the past few years.

I don't think the universe cares about anybody. It's just the universe, after all. :P
» randomjunk on 2010-07-29 04:30:49

I ditto randy on the first paragraph. Seriously, when you younger brother choose to side his stupid friends in a misunderstanding over you, you know you're better off not having a brother at all. Sometimes we are better off not worrying too much because we can never be enough for everyone.

I think deciding what person you want to be is always a work-in-progress cause we cannot be sure of the exact things that we want or not want to be, we have to change with time in order to survive.

I don't mind being your ear when you need one, it seems to be what I do best... =)

Btw, I don't think the universe cares about anyone too cause the harder I try, the more I am not getting what I am trying harder for.
» Nuttz on 2010-07-29 06:50:13

The Alchemist is on my short list of books I gotta pick up.

I know what you mean about wanting to find someone you can connect with and talk to about the shit that goes on in your mind when it gets so heavy. A part of me feels like I don't have someone like that either.. I used to, but then she fucked with my mind and kamehameha'd my soul and now I find it difficult to -- ... er.. yeah, this is your blog, not mine.


Anyway, you've been challenged, pal. 100 facts about yourself.
» Dilated on 2010-08-02 12:25:25

meow. u just need to be urself and continue to improve on urself. it will be more painful if u r trying to be someone else u r not.

meow... surprisingly i don't really like the alchemist because of its writing style. i prefer messages to be hidden and made that person thinks not blatantly wrote the message right away like what u have quoted. i prefer to read back the sentences and try to decipher.

i have not finished the book but i don't feel like finishing the book when there is no surprise message in the book.

meow. i'm also at a crossroad at the moment. i just don't know what to do in this life and yet i don't want to live a regretful live. what the book says is true: we got to try something before giving up on that idea. an idea or a dream would never materialise if we never even took the first step.

and lobster? u got a lobster as a pet? wow ... r u goin to cook it one day?
» renaye on 2010-08-02 08:46:10

Trying is for punks and republicans, pal. DO!
» Dilated on 2010-08-04 09:48:18

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